I knew it would be hard to stop cutting but i never thought it would be this hard. I've only made it 5 days and every day i want to die even more. I can't stop cutting and i dont even want to. I wasn't trying to stop for myself it was for someone else. I've done it for over 2 years and its to hard to give up. Theres no way i could talk to my mom about getting help, she thinks i stoped a year ago.

Well maybe you just need to gather the courage to speak to her about it. The situation is only going to get worse. It's proven that with support by people who care, many people succeed in whatever they are trying to accomplish. You need support and I'm sorry that I can't help you anymore, but I've never been through this. But I do know that you need someone to talk to. And maybe after getting support, you can treat this. Yes, I think of this as like an addiction and I think the main idea is to try and preoccupy yourself with something and stay busy so that you won't have the opportunity to cut yourself. Try to always be around someone?

I know i should talk to her about it but im to scared to. She would overreact and wouldn't let me be alone for more than 2 minuits by myself. I do try to stay bussy but its hard to late at night.

Well maybe it's a good thing she wouldn't leave you alone, then you wouldn't even risk giving into the temptation. Just no that whoever you tell whether it's a close friend, counselor, relative, whoever---they are going to overreact because this is a very serious issue.

If you're uncomfortable with talking to your mom. You should talk to another adult maybe perhaps your counsellor or any other relatives.

Hey... Umm im 15 and i used to cut myself practically everyday... All my friends would slap me if i came to school with scars on my arms and my boyfriend threatened to dump me if i ever did it again... You need to do it for yourself.. just think when you finally overcome the depression you'll look back on these ugly scars on your arms... do you hide your scars? If you do imagine how hard it will be to wear t-shirts and whatever in the summer.... I used to cut so that i could punish myself for whatever went wrong... or i did it to feel pain because half the time i didnt know what i was feeling... Every time you think to cut DONT.. i got told to get an ice cube and squeeze it in your hand... ther pain has the same effect... or wear an elastic band and flick it against your skin whenever you feel the need to cut... slowly you'll see that you have gotten yourself out of the cycle.. well i hope.