I'm not sure if this is normal or not but recently (like the past 2 weeks) I've been finding that everything is too much. I can’t take it all, I have no motivation and I can’t seem to act normal. I find that just randomly or if I eat something sugary I will flip to being hyperactive and unable keep still. But after a few hours it wears off and I feel twice as bad. So to stop feeling rubbish all the time I eat a lot of sweets. For some reason I’m losing weight. I have about one proper meal a day.

I can’t talk to anyone as they won’t listen. My family are preoccupied with their own problems and that’s all they want to talk about. Like my dad is unhappy about his marriage and my mum about her job. Any time I try I burst into tears or I cannot physically get the words out. It’s pretty much always been like that though. When I was 14 I was a cutter. (3 years ago) I didn’t tell anyone and felt inspired to stop because of a speech I heard. It took me about 6 months to stop completely. Just now, as well, I get the urge to cut again, I don’t want to as the effort of it all is too much. Just the feeling it gives is better than feeling like this.

Its just my moods flip so frequently, its annoying. I cant deal with staying like this always and I don't want to go back to how I was at 14. Is this normal?

Sorry about the essay. :'(

It seems as if everyone goes through this sort of phase, where they don't feel motivated to do much of anything. But you have to understand, it will pass. Things will get better for you. Cutting isn't the way you want to take it. You just need to take a deep breath and relax and thing about the things you'd like to accomplish. Set yourself a list of goals. Don't overload yourself with things, just try small things to start, and then build it up from there.

I went through this as well, where I would just sit around the house and cry all the time. And then I kind of realized I needed to pick myself up and do something to help myself, because I'm not going to have the world handed to me by sitting around doing nothing for myself.

This is completely normal to go through. Maybe instead of trying to talk to a parent, you could try talking to a close friend. I always find it easier to tell a friend how I'm feeling rather than a parent. Hope I helped. Good luck.

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Thanks. I feel a bit better about this now. I'm going to try that.

No problem. Let me know how it goes.

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ahhh no motivation i see? quite a common issue, and i may be able to help. i'm going to use me and school work as an example. you can interpret it how you want and maybe make some connections. so i hold a 4.0+ GPA, and there are days where i'm tired or i just want to say "fuck it" to an assignment because it might only drop me to a B if anything. that's when i talk to my self in my mind and tell myself that if i wan't the easy life in college and beyond i HAVE to have a perfect GPA. if i want to have a free ride through college and have a huge income and a huge car then i have to suck it up and do the damned assignment, no matter what. i slowly inspire myself to perform at the top of my ability. this has been working EXCEPTIONALLY well for me lately and my grades are absolutely perfect. so i can go to sleep happy everyday thinking about all the scholarships i'll have the nice car i'll have and everything. hope that bit right there helped you discover what you much do to achieve a happier life.

as for cutting, generally it is looked down upon by others for various ignorances. care to expound on your reasonings for cutting and why you feel that is the only way to feel better? as for your parents, they need to pay attention to you. they should be wanting the best for you and you deserve nothing but the best from them. you need to have a serious conversation with them and get their attention somehow.

BEST OF LUCK!

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You need something to aim for, a goal, this will give you a sense of purpose and a reason to get motivated.

I struggled with this for years until I found acting... Also, write some innovative, motivational quotes on a window or mirror that you look at every day.

On mine I've written:

"Is life not a thoursand times too short for us to bore ourselves."

"Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make anything happen."

"People need to be made more aware of the need to work at learning how to live, because life is so short and sometimes it goes away too quickly."

Also the words, "Vision, Dream, Imagine, Target, Achieve, Succeed. Because I can."

This is what really sets me into gear for the day and gets me into the right mindset, whatever I decide to do.

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dude, i totally love this idea! i'm going to put some quotes up on my wall now ^.^

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I am assuming that when you said you didn't tell anyone about your cutting habit that no one knew about it for the entire six months it was going on...?
Wow... The fourth day I cut every one in my class was like "Holy god! What happened to your arm?!"Because I had been wearing long sleeves, and forgot had momentarily forgotten about the cuts I lifted my sleeve to scratch my arm...

I left school being the highest achieving girl in my year, practically straight A*/As And I need to get the best possible results now in college or all my plans wont happen. Its just I find it hard to get out of this mind frame. I’m doing ok in college work. I get all my homework done but there are times I find that I’ve been staring into space for 2 hours without realizing. I can be doing homework for 3 hours then give up completely. In school I found everything relatively easy now its not. I’m predicted mainly Bs now. Homework will take me twice as long as I could do it in.

My reasons for cutting at 14 aredifferent to now. I was a ‘goth’ and a ’geek’ and teased about it practically constantly. I know, so stereotypical. I could have just got over it and not dressed in a lot of black. But I felt I was an outcast and couldn’t fit in anyway. Damn, it sounds so stupid. Cutting made it easier to get through insults. It gave me clarity. And I want to feel that again.

My parents mean well, they say they would listen to me. every time I’ve tried to talk to them, they turn it around. For example I brought up cutting with my mum, not telling her that I had cut. She said that some people couldn’t take life and as she was a strong person she dealt with her issues instead of bottling them up. I don’t want her to think I’m a weak person so pretending I’m ok is easier. If I told her about it she would take it as a personal insult that I haven’t spoken to her before.

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I have a goal, its just sticking to it thats hard, feels impossible as its so huge. :S I actually love this this. my room is covered in quotes but depressing ones, I’m going to replace them with these. -steals- thanks.



I was cutting for a year before I decided to stop and that was what took 6 months. And nope, nobody knows.

i've felt the same way as you have. Sometimes i wouldn't have that much homework, but still i'd put off doing it, because i has no motivation. I'd waste countless hours doing useless stuff, instead of doing 20mins of homework.
sometimes i would act all crazy or "high", and sometimes, i'd be all depressed and thinking negative thoughts. i know people have already replied with this similar responce, but i just want to share with you my personal experience and tell you it is quite normal (even tho many people have already pointed out) ;p, i try to think of my long term goals, and that seems to keep me going... all the best!

Well, we all have been through that phase and its normal. I remember the last time when it happened Professor X sent his new recruits to fight again our Leader Magneto though our Leader fought bravely we lost.

I was depressed about it because even after being a Mutant I could not help my Leader. I felt motiveless for many years until our Leader again told us that we would be fighting a new fight, A Fight that will give us our own Mutant Land.

I have a hope that someday we will have our own Mutant Land, where only mutants will be available. This is my motivation.

Going for a run with some good music on helps a lot.

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