Yeah so I'm not here to be all dramatic and read you my poetry while I listen to enya and burn myself with matches, but I need some help. I'm a loser. Nobody else thinks that, pretty much everyone i know thinks im a cool guy, but I think im a loser. I dont do anything, lately whenever I'm around people, particularly girls, I just feel awkward in my own skin, and I dont know why. And I try not to think about it, but that just makes me think about it more. I feel like I have fun when I'm hanging out with friends, even though I'm a little selfconcious for reasons that are beyond me. But when I go home or spend time by myself, all i can do is waste my time until I get to be with people again. I dont even like people. they fucking piss me off. I'm bored all the time, I'm miserable alot of the time. I feel like I cant get any satisfaction at all. I'm kind of an asshole. I used to be a nice guy but I'm starting to catch myself be an insensitive prick. A long time ago after years of religious and philosophical struggle, I decided that life was completely pointless and the best route was to just have as much fun as possible. this is clearly backfiring. I cant get high anymore, all i do is get paranoid. All the things that used to give me the most pleasure i just fucking hate. Thought about killing myself. Eh. Its still an option, im just waiting to get laid first. Haha. If you tell me I need to go to church or find god or some shit i will find you and beat you with the bible. anyways thats my tale of self-loathing. Enjoy

Hey there

Go to church! Sike. I'm kidding. Don't do that, it'll make you more depressed. You remind me a lot of myself, in the whole area of not having much fun except around friends. All you have to do is find something you truly enjoy doing. For example, I just recently got my bike all fixed up and started doing that for fun. I also play the guitar and sing; taking up an instrument is always a fun thing to do. Takes work, but the work can be good for you. It all comes down to being creative and coming up with something interesting to fill your time with. The way you talk, you don't sound so depressed as you do just bored. I also wouldn't recommend drugs, even good old weed. It can get you into trouble and make your depression worse. This is coming from an ex-majorsuperdiditeverydaypothead. Just find something you like man!

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Haha yeah im just coming out of a smoke all day every day phase. I'm just fucking sick of it. Its the same shit over and over, plus im getting more and more paranoid like 50% of the time i just freak out lol. I'm trying to find creative ways to waste my time haha. I'm thinking acid Ha just kidding. Kind of. Thanks for the advice

I thought the same way about life 200 years ago but there was something that took me back to the Start. I am old now but that "thing" revives me everytime and I feel young again, it strengthens me and I move on though my heart rushes to the start--- I move on.

You have to find yourself
Deep down inside you.

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Wtf.
I listen to Enya. >:/

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Calm down.. and don't you dare kill yourself.. I mean why make such a permanent desicion to such a temparary problem?
Life goes on your just having rough times.. Things will get better they always do. You say your an assshole well try to be a nicer guy and maybe your life will get better.

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