I didnt know which catagory this went in but anyway.

I have a stash of smokes ive been building up in my drawer for a few months and now i have about 5 smokes ive nicked from my sister.
last night i had one and the night before and now i feel guilty.

i told my family i have chosen not to smoke when i turn 18.
all my family smokes, and i wanted to do something right for a change.
but growing up with people smoking, i feel i need to do it too.

i smoke them in my room late at night and the smoke builds up lol.
it was the 2nd time ive smoked ever, and i had to go to work last night and i had a major sore throat. now i have a really bad taste in my mouth.

I've been smoking them lately because ive been feeling really down. Mostly about this guy i like, and my best friend, and life in general.

any advice appreciated. <3

i know how u feel
every1 in my family smokes too
its becomes a part of life being around it all the time. but dont start smoking just cuz ppl around u do or because ur upset because eventually life will get better but if u get hooked onsmoking quiteing is a bitch and itll really mess u up down the road. find a different way to chill out other than smoke listen to music or sumthing
oo and toss the stash , get rid of temptation and itll be easier to never start


good luck

I live in a house with 3 smokers, my 2 aunts smoke, my 2 uncles smoke. My uncle that lived with me previously was a smoker. Two of my brothers smoked. My 16 year old cousin smokes and so does my 2nd cousin. Everyone I know smokes and I've chosen to abstain from it 100%. It's just a will power thing. If you want to smoke, that's up to you. Should you feel bad about it? If you feel bad about it, maybe you shouldn't be doing it. :/

I'm a smoker, I would not tell you to smoke cause you don't seem like you're doing it for the right reasons, you do whatever you feel though; don't let the non smokers be arseholes and guilt you about it if you want to do it and don't let smokers force you into it.

It is purely for your own pleasure and as with everything else in life you should be able to freely do what you want to do. As for the sore throat, if you continue to smoke your throat will get used to it and the taste will get better (if you like it that is )otherwise buy some throat lozenges and it should feel better soon! Good luck, don't let anyone else pressure you into anything!