My mom takes pain pills every night and morning and she thinks I don't know. My dad smokes weed every night or when he gets mad, on friday they all get their friends and get fucked up, same on saturday and sunday (school night). fucking music blaring and I can't fucking sleep, bullshit. I don't even feel like I am fitting in at school because all of the other kids seem like their lives are perfect. I hate this shit, its not fair, my mom doesn't give a shit about my education, neither does my dad. The only one that cares is my grandma, and a half-assed care. No one gives a shit what I do until I get in big trouble, in the 8th grade, 3 years ago, I left school in the middle of the day because I was so pissed at my family and I wasn't going to go back, of course the cops came and found my about 15 blocks down. My aunt came and got me, and my mom was bitching at me the whole day and I just want to tell her that she needs to straighten the fuck up because she is ruining my fucking life and everything I am capable of. Ever since the 5th grade I have been doing shitty in school and not giving a fuck. I had straight A's until then. Both my parents deliver newspapers, my mom makes 400-500 while my dad makes 100-150 and he says he has a harder job, they fight all the fucking time. We moved supposedly because the school is better, but not for me, I at least fit it with the other fuck ups back at my other school.I know we really moved because they can't afford it. I personally could just let them both leave or me leave, and me and my brother can have a better life. I don't want him to have to end up where I'm headed. He is 12 years old in middle school, and starting to get bad grades like I am, I am a bad influence and blame myself for it. I get pissed off when I see girls that I like with other guys and I see them smiling knowing I'm not the one making them smile. I feel that if I just don't give a fuck then I can chill through life until 18 then end up like my older sister did. I don't do drugs, don't have an intent to, I don't want to end up like my mom and dad, but I know that I can change my education, but drugs are harder to get off of. I just had to get this out of me because it's bothering me bad.

i'm gay, are you?

I have absolutely no idea what you are going through, but hang in there. Your parents are screwing up their lives ok, but don't let them screw up yours.

Could you talk to the school councillor. I know that when I was really depressed and my mum found me attempting suicide, I just couldn't face my parents and what not. I went to my councillor at school and he organised for me to move in with him for a while. A month down the track, I wasn't feeling like I needed to die anymore and I moved back home. My parents understood why and they supported me.

If there anyone responsible you could move in with? It's a hard thing, I know, but you gotta work it out and not end up where your parents are.

It's sad to see kids whose parents, their biggest role models in life, are complete fuck ups and don't care. I really feel for you eh. No offence meant by calling them fuck ups either.

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Life until you leave home is going to be rough, you should try to help yourself so you can help your brother follow a better path. Seems to me that your parents bad habits are going to continue and they are addictive so you will have to work hard to get what you want in life.

My dad drank two cases of budweiser all the time, sometimes whiskey and vodka, and he would throw up on the bathroom floor sometimes and not even clean it up. My mom and dad would smoke weed and get high and extremely drunk and scream and fight all the time and would blare the music all the time even when I was sleeping, and that's why I was rather suprised when I read this because it sounds exactly what I went through.
My mom still drinks but hardly, and my dad has been clean for 2 months going on to 3 months now, and he just stopped craving it one day and realised it would kill him so hopefully your parents will come to the realization that they are doing this to you and themselves and stop. They have to clean themselves up eventually.
In the meantime, why don't you just go live with your aunt or your grandma? You don't need to be around your parents if they're going to be doing that. You're not the only one trust me I seriously considered moving away myself.

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love to join with them

What type of parents drink and do drugs when they have children ..
People like that make my blood boil.

That's pathetic.

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