Okay i have everything to deal with at the moment its unreal... what with gcse's and competing (horse riding) and work and now my f.ucking mates.
I have had it up to here.... Just everything makes me feel like s.hit around them... i know i only have a week left of school but we still have loads of stuff to deal with after that.

I hate them. All of them, But the thing i hate the most is that i love them.
I can't leave them.

I don't know whats been going on its been dividided, people b.itching, s.lagging eachother off behind their backs... we're not real friends just something to rely on.
I had depression really bad about 2 years ago and attempt suicide a numerous of times, all of which failed (well duh lol), Now i can slowly feel myself slipping back into it again... and its killing me. The only think keeping me going is my horses (sounds stupid, i know!), but they are my everything.

I can tell they all hate me... and i really just don't know what to do, and before you say there is no way i can talk to them about this.

Thanks for reading

Not sounding rude, but if they aren't true friends, find better ones.

And for your horses, it's easy. Your horses are close relations that have interaction with you, and do not, and can not, disgrace or offend you. Then are relaxed, calming creatures and you can talk to them.

That's what a pets for.

All you need are some better HUMAN friends. You'll be fine.

I'm a little stuck on what to say, but I have been in what seems like similar situation as you before.

I doubt your friends hate you. I know at times I get sick of being around some of myf reinds and I tend to show it too, so maybe after a year of going to school they're a bit tired of seeing everyone.

Don't let your emotions get to you, though. When school gets out, things will get better, because you won't have to be around them everyday. You have 1 week left, you can make it!

You can find better friends...or talk to an adult about it?

It's never good to be in a position where your friends don't like you. Try to make some new friends over the summer. You'll feel much better about yourself.

Sounds similiar to my current situation.
I used to be very popular, never had any enemys. I was neutral with everyone and most people liked me.
Then I got in with this group. And I used to get drunk and stond with them most weekends. They talk about shit behind my back, most of the girls I hang with are slutty. And everyone just uses each other.
(Thats How I relate to you).
And from then on, my life went to shit.
Got kicked out of school for drugs.
Went to a rough as public school, got beaten up heaps.
Left that school, Waiting to get accepted into another highschool.
Still in with bad company, doing drugs, fucking my life up, Its the only life I know. I do it as escapeism.
So many rumours going around about me. I lost most if not all of my decent friends.
And im in a use and abuse relationship with me new crowd.
Ugh, I dunno. Im only 14 btw. My life is so fucked up.

I went way off topic.
But I thought I'd just let that out, haha.

friends come and go, hang on to ones that make you feel awesome.

Guh, I understand how you feel!
But just wait it out for the week. You're probably all taking out the stress of the exams on each other.
Like I just did my Junior Cert. (It's a state exam here in Ireland) & in the week or two before it and during it was probably the most melodramtic time I can ever remember with my friends. Everyone blew tiny fings waaay out of proportion with each other. These fights were so big the people directly involved thought they were friendship destroying fights. But no they weren't. Well most weren't. The one I got involved isn't completely clear yet, but I'm hoping it'll fade over the summer...
Anyways over the summer, try to make new friends so you don't have to depend on these ones.

Still, I know it's a tough time for you, so if you wanna talk about it further please feel free to PM me.
That goes for you too rugger.

=)