Well... Lets start of with my story before we go onto my issue.
I'm a FTM transgender, free-spirited, friendly, atheist who is dating a gender fluid person. Being raised in a closed minded, religious, normal, mentally abusive family. I bet you can already see the problem? The only fair
person in the family is my mother.
Thing is I have major anger issues, why? Because my dad is always so aggressive and negative and horrible person to my mother. I hate my dad.
I'm so angry that I feel one day I will simply lose it an attack my dad, despite my fair self control, since today... He RAGED (actual rage) at my mother. The reason? Because she gave her opinion on a song he made her listen to. Her opinion was that in one point of the song it was repetitive. He raged and said he just won't go to church with her then. Church is another thing that bothers me since I'm an 'in the closet' atheist.
I simply cannot stand my father! He is so traditional
and closed minded, which I normally would ignore except... He FORCES what he thinks DOWN YOUR THROAT
!!! He's just so... horrible getting upset just cause you disagree with him! Urgh, I hate him even more because once he hit my mother. He mentally abuses her and though she says nothing I can tell it's tearing her apart. I wish they'd get divorced just so my mom can be happy. But I know that would raise more complications.
I just need someone to tell me how to deal with all of this till I can just move out (which will be in 4/3 years).
Please I just can barely handle this, I used to think of suicide because of all this and I'm better now but still this is mentally eating me!