Join Date: Mar 2013
Last Online: 03-31-2013 09:26 PM
Hey guys, my name's Arielle, I'm 17 years old and live in Australia. I just wanna tell you a bit of my story and tell a story i wrote for you.
I havenít had the best of years growing up, countless family issues that just donít seem to ever end. Iíve been constantly bullied all through primary and high school years, for reasons that I donít even know myself. I donít know what I want in life. All I know is that I want to help people. I live to help others. I speak to people in all different countries on forums like this, yahoo, Skype, email, people I will probably never ever get the chance to meet. Me knowing that I have impacted on someone's life, whether it's helping decide on what they want to eat, or if I've just stopped someone from killing themselves is the best feeling I have ever felt. Thatís what gets me out of bed in the morning, that's what motivates me.But Iím not sure if I'm happy I donít know if I will ever be. But as long as everyone around me is happy. Then thatís good enough for me.
I've been through so much in such a short period of time, probably more than average. So I understand what any of you may be going through, and I wanna help you. Everyone has their own story.
I wrote the following about a month ago;
We live in a world where people are scared to be themselves, they try and be someone they arenít, people beat someone because he/she isnít the same, and gay people canít be open about their sexuality, because some person will make their life a living hell if they are open about who they are.
I have definitely been called all the names under the sun, Iíve heard it all. Yeah I am happy with who I am. But that doesnít mean those words donít hurt. When people point out one of my flaws I just want to sit and cry and believe me I have a few times. At the same time no one actually has the right to say ANYTHING disrespectful because I can guarantee you that they arenít perfect. I say this because I lost my bestfriend because of disrespectful people. If someone you bullied commits suicide, whatís going to get said then? absofuckinglutely nothing. You will try to be sympathetic, be in denial. But in the end youíll know deep down that somehow, someway you could have impacted on that persons life. How will you feel then? Youíre going to feel hurt, regret, and pain. Yes, everyone has their own problems and who am I to judge right? But if you had a flaw, would you want it to be publically advertised or talked about one on one.
Put yourself in their shoes before you even consider judging, bullying, or saying any negative to someone, because it may just push them over the edge.
No one ever has to make you feel miserable. No one ever has to make you feel alone. No one ever has to make you feel like youíre not worth it. No one should be able make you feel this way. Ever. No matter if itís a joke, or what not, the slightest words you say can all go to someoneís head and stay there. Leave them scarred. Scarred with the voices, the laughs, the rumours, the glances. The rumours, theyíre nothing but words. Their glances, theyíre just jealous because youíre not like one of them. The laughs, in the meantime, their laughs will turn to silence when you raise your head high and walk. The voices, are nothing but words that will hurt like knives through your brain, heart, body. Do not cry yourself to sleep at night. I want you to know that youíre not alone. Weíre all facing problems like these too. With your friends turning against you, with people threatening to hurt you. Donít do anything stupid and just, trust me. You are worth so much more than this. Youíll just have to wait and see. Donít have any fears. You are not alone.
I also just started using twitter, tumblr and even created a facebook page. if people need advice they can contact me on there. Mind you I still have zero idea on how to use them!!
Twitter - ariellegracee
Tumblr - headphonesgluedon (better to view on computer as you can read more)
Facebook - headphonesgluedon
Email - airelia@ymail
Keep smiling, and remember, once you hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up. Love you all. <3