Okay, so here it goes. My name is Alex, I'm 17 and I have a bit of a life dilemna. Parents were divorced at young age of 4, always fighting over visitation, ended up living with my mom and seeing my dad every other weekend. Mother was a cruel evil bitch, prescription drug addict, new boyfriend every month kind of mother. Every boyfriend/step dad I ever had typically beat the shit out of me and abused me like a doormat, ofcourse till I reached their height. Couldn't live with my dad till about 15 years old, due to my mother blackmailing him and extorting money out of him. Found out soon as I lived with my dad, he was just in it for the money that my mother was getting from him "since" he didn't have to pay it anymore. Didn't really receive any support from him, but atleast it was away from my mother's so that helped.

School life been fucked up, I can't seem to keep friends for the life of me. I make them, and somehow I just end up ignoring them out of pure boredom (I suppose). Then ofcourse, they grow to hate me because of it.
Basically skipped middle school due to a few lies I told, faked going through homeschool, and then they gave me a test to try my ability to get into highschool.(I passed easily) Got put in a bunch of AP/honor's classes, but always too aggravated to do homework and such. My teachers started to subtract the homework portion of my grade because they liked me so much, so that helped me get all A's/B's pretty much. Unfortunatly, my ability to make almost everybody in the school my enemy is uncanny, so wherever I went there was trouble. Couldn't really focus, kept getting suspended for fighting. School counselors/principles/everybody was always on my back, making me out to be the bad guy, ofcourse since I didn't have any friends to back me up, and huge groups of people would fabricate stories against me.

Ended up dropping out of school, want to get a job but can't for several reasons. Can't work anywhere local, because just about everybody around here wants my arse on a plate, tried using bus service to get access to different places to work, but after applying to every damn place around they didn't want someone with no refrences, not to mention every person on the bus looks about like they want to eat me alive.(because I stick out like a sore thumb) Can't get a car because ofcourse, can't afford the car/insurance without a job. Parents won't help me get a job because obviously their useless peices of sheit. So for about the past month or so, I've been going nuts inside this house. In about a week or so I can get my GED.

So what do you all think?

Well i dont know what to say really. Im sorry for what has happened with your parents, but im sure you dont want sympathy. Do you have any relatives outside your area? Try talking to your mum or dad? My advice is a fresh start. Move out of your town and head for a city, just a complete fresh start. Leave your past behind. Get a job there, get your own place, make some friends! All it takes is a simple 'Hi' to a complete stranger, if they say hi back just start a conversation with them! I know my post is probably not the best advice but i tried.... Well i hope i helped

i can relate to some of that....i just hope I don't get into the rut you have.

You need to get out of that hole, and its NOT easy. I suppose you gotta keep hope!?!

Goto local buisness', knock on doors...just try to get small jobs? you could make £10 a day if you like were really going for it with doing car washing, lawn mowing. I KNOW it sounds pathetic and childish...but sounds like you need a money QUICK so you can get a car and work far away from home.

=/ dont know if that helped at all. but i suppose, its all about strength in the mind. you have to keep above the world. dont fall into depression. i would know. you just gotta keep fighting, even though u feel like no1 likes you and you are worthless.

you are only 17. you have a life ahead of you. you CAN do this. you WILL sucseed. just keep trying.

Your mother is a coward, and so are these men. Of course, hopefully that doesn't offend you.
That's definitely understandable, after what you've gone through. I mean, seriously, nothing is as exciting as what you're old life used to be!
I can't STAND those type of people.
Exciting enough to write a book. Maybe that's where your true career lies? Hire a writer to write it for you, and just tell him about it. You could make millions.

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Go work in McDonald's or something, those never need references. Or at least, do so until you can go work in something else.

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I can relate to you're parents' divorce. I've been in the situation of them both hating eachother and being in the middle for quite a few year now - it's tough sometimes and gets to me, but, i'm so far past caring now. I just have to get on with it. Although, I know you're situation is very different. Them men are a poor excuse for a human being it's disgraceful how you're mums boyfriends have treated you. How they even lay hands on you is beyond me, ridiculous. Cowards.

I'm not really sure about what else to say, I can imagine it is quite hard for you right now. But, remember this; it may well feel like you're going to be like this forever, but you won't, it won't last forever. Have you tried you're local job centre or something? Any small jobs going? If you can manage to get a small job, it's still a big achievement. A job, is a job, right? No matter what the job may be.


Things may well be difficult for you right now, but, you have to stay positive.
Things can only get better.


SimpleGirl*

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shit man sorry about all this, that is tough
try for any kind of job, just to get an income and start out somewhere
even if it is the lowest job at mcdonald's, or dish washer, anything, work your way up from there

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