I know I sound desperate but thats because I am and I can't stress enough how desperate I need help.

Please give me some advice on how to cope with this situation, I need help.

I waited all of the summer holidays, without any friends to talk to, waiting to go to a new boarding school, I hated it there so I quickly left, It was an awful experience and even now my parents aren't the same with me, we had to pay £6000 for 2 days.

A week later I got into an amazing school, it was perfect, it might as well have been designed for me. I went for one day, hadn't taken my medication, and I left. I can't think why I would leave, it was perfect for me, but I left, I honestly can't think of why anymore and I have regretted it everyday since...


I now have over a year of solitude in my room, till I can go back to a 6th form in 2011.

I know I deserve this, I brought it on myself, but I wasn't right in the head at the time! It's not an emo, 'oh my sorrow' ordeal its a 'wtf I don't think and react normally to situations and it's ruining my life'.

I am trying but the idea of going through a year by myself is making me go insane. What's worse, and I am not exagerating, I have no friends, literally none, for various reasons, I can honestly say I don't have a single teenage friend.

I'm so desperate right now I'm just staring at the school's website, I'm losing it and I need advice.

I know I sound like I'm whining but that's because I am, I am facing over a year alone in my room, literally! I can't do that, no one can! It makes people go insane.

I need help and advice

I'm also going to add I didn't willingly not take my meds, I had run out of pills.

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In a situation like this, it's best to take a step back and look at the root concern that you're having. The thing that seems to be bothering you the most is the fact that you might have to spend a lot of time alone because you don't have any friends. You're afraid that you might go insane from a lack of social interaction, and this is completely understandable. Social interaction is what makes us who we are, our relationships are more important than most people think, and we often take them for granted.

I don't completely understand why you don't have anyone to talk to, which would be helpful with me helping you out. So could you explain that a little bit more so I can really give you some advice? I know that you won't be in school, but how come you don't have any friends from before?

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I don't have any friends, I didn't have many before I left my old school, and our friendships have been severed. We lost touch, there were some bad situations where they showed they weren't real friend. They can't be repaired and I wouldn't want them to be. It sounds like I'm exaggerating, how can anyone not have any friends? My therapist had a hard time believing me but I swear to you, I am in contact with no one and have no one to contact.

People are telling me to get a job etc... but I suffer from extreme anxiety, I was trying to get myself to walk into a barbers for 2 weeks, because I just couldn't, I can't explain why, I just become overwhealmed with anxiety when I'm in social situations.

The problem is that staying in my room till 2011 is going to make things much worse, as you can obvioiusly imagine, but how can I get a job when I can barely bring myself to walk into a barbers?

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Your situation may seem very bleak at the moment, but you can't give up, ever. Obviously you have something going on in your head that is putting a damper on things you need to do. You had that perfect school, but for some reason you didn't want to stick with it because of not taking your medication. One point of advice I can give you that I can never stress enough is to always take your medication. I'm bipolar, and if I don't take my medication, bad things happen. I can't function, and if I go to long without it, I have to be hospitalized.

Although the thought probably gets you very anxious, you absolutely need social interaction. It sounds to me though, like it's something you want. So you should be happy in a social situation because you're getting that interaction you desire. Now, since you probably won't be able to get into school, this means you need to either get a job or join a club of some sort. Or do volunteer work, anything to get you out of your room and around people. All things take practice, and you need to practice social interaction to get over your fear of it. I used to be really socially awkward, but I just put myself in social situations and I got the gist of it. So do try and find a job, you need to meet people .

Also, I'd talk to your doctor or psychiatrist about maybe switching medications or changing the dose if you still have extreme anxiety attacks, assuming you are in fact taking your medication. Like I said, actually taking it is very important. Also, talk to your therapist about these fears you're having, about being alone. They'll probably say a lot of the same things I did, but hearing it from a professional is often more reassuring than hearing it from a psychology enthusiast across the internet, i.e. me.

And, if you feel inclined, you can add me on AIM or MSN, whichever you prefer.

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I took a break from all my friends and everything else for a year. I went into independent study and spent my free time working on my self. Take this time and do something with it. Work out, go to the mall and sarge girls, maybe learn a new language.

I may not be understanding the situation to the full, so i apologize if i'm not getting the whole of it. But it does seem you're similar to me in a way. I have anxiety to that extent often, that much it affected me so i had to drop out of college recently. I also didn't take my medication once (my own fault) and i realized it was the worst thing i could have done. I can understand why you feel like this, and i know it's probably difficult for you to cope with when you get the anxiety, the best thing for me was talking to someone. I know this is always mentioned to those that have problems etc, but the truth is, it's that helpful! It's probably mostly important you sort the issues during the time you're stuck doing nothing. That's what i'm doing this year, and i know things will get better, just like they will for you. I definitely understand your situation with lack of friends, this has pretty much been the same with me, along with the staying indoors being bored as hell. So i do understand. But, i'm sure it would be good if someone was there to support you throughout this time you have doing nothing? You can try and find out about various things you can attend where you can meet people, whether it's an anxiety management group, counceling place, or something associated with a hobby, it's all extremely helpful, trust me.
You can talk to me, i'll always support and try and help, and it's likely i'll understand well due to being in a similar situation. Would you like to talk about it?

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