Right now I go to a small school (less than 300 students) that specializes in the fine arts, although we also have academic classes. I went there my freshman year claiming that I wanted to be a writing major, but my passion for it died. Now that I'm a sophomore, I've been trying all the classes out, but none of them are for me. I can't dance, can't sing, can't draw, and can't act without getting stage fright. These are not all the arts available of course, but you get my point. I can't do anything.
Now I'm wondering if I should go to a normal high school for my junior and senior year. Unfortunately, my only choice is the school where all my old 'friends' are, and I would rather not face them again. I went through so much emotional pain in middle school I was ready to kill myself. It had to do with the fact that they shunned me without ever saying so. They deliberately ignored me when I talked to them, even going so far as to purposefully turn to another person and start talking the moment I opened my mouth.
I'm afraid of going back there (it's been two years now), and I feel that the least I should do is be perfect, just to show them I never needed them. By 'perfect' I mean attractive, self-controlled (I had severe mood swings in middle school b/c of the depression), and self-sufficient, among other things. I want to show them I am not longer the dark, moody creep who the underclassmen were terrified of, even though I never did anything cruel or scary to them.
What should I do? I really want to go to the normal high school, but there's a lot of drugs there and I'm really scared of that stuff. I want to grow up and be a nurse, but I'm not getting good grades because I still have depression, although I've been struggling to pull myself back up.
Thanks for reading about my problems and I hope you can give me an answer.

Honestly, a 'normal' highschool isn't that bad. I went from a normal highschool into a performing arts school and then back again. It's really not worth paying more money for the special classes if you're not going to do them.
Some people at performing arts schools can be snobbish. They can afford things and people see them as having 'talents' so they treat other people like scum. At the one I went to though, there were also a lot of lovely people which made it harder to leave.
I think you'll do just fine at a normal school. You can check them out to make sure they're not too bad and honestly, if you're worried about drugs; "just say no".
As for making friends; just be your self. Some people won't like it, and that's just them being narrow-minded. Some people will find you awesome, I'm sure, and as long as you try to be pleasant, you'll make friends fine.
If you have depression, I strongly suggest you get help. The world is so much better once you have something to stand on, and with the 'constant mood-swings' you may even have bipolar disorder? It's just much better once you know for sure.

Tell yourself you're awesome every day in a mirror, soon enough you'll believe it. You're a great person because you are an individual, and don't let anyone tell you any different. I hope you do well. (:

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