do you still exist? if you ever come back here, PLEASE pm me. i miss you so. fucking. much.
i hope christian has a great second birthday
how r u ?
Oh my god how are you?!
omg i saw my great aunt&uncle tonight, they flew in from england for a few days, i haven't seen them in like 8 years.
and then ughughugh famdram for suuure. my aunt like refuses to talk to any of the family except my mom and i, and when i uploaded the pictures from tonight on facebook (cuz my great uncle is her uncle) she messaged me all upset like why wasnt she invited, as if we're supposed to contact her about everything when all she contacts us for is money, lol my god some people don't even realize who they're hurting.
how was your day!?
fuck pms lol. seriously, all those boys wanting to be girls are lucky. you get the looks but not the baggage. FUUCK pms.
aww that's good, i remember you guys were having trouble before, but it's really good he's still around and you're happy! which is even better!
anyway i'm going to dinner with my uncle and aunt that i havent seen in like 8 years, so i'll talk to you later, now that i can. <333
ahahha SAME. or i cry for no reason, ahhaha.
aww well, whoever he dates will be very very lucky one day
how are you and your boyfriend? still together?
oh weird, yeah my hypos really bad, like im ALWAYS tired, my eyes get dry all the time, mood swings, all the fun stuff that goes with it.
lucky you losing weight! haha, hopefully i will soon, i just need those pills and a bike, and i'm good to go haha.
oh i looked at those pictures of christian, omg he looks like.. big. hahaha. and so cute, still. that boy is gonna break hearts one day, for real.
haha well i wouldn't have gotten the blood tests if she didn't mention my throat, but the blood tests is the way to find out for sure. oh are you hypO or hypER? cuz i'm hypo. i got fat. hahahha.
thanks i'm looking forward to when that happens!
what happened was i went to the doctor for something and she felt my throat as part of the checkup, and said "your thyroid feels enlarged" and i was like "..wtf does that mean?" so she told me i should get blood taken and i freaked out, like nonono i don't want to, and then i ended up doing it and she was like yeah you're hypothyroid. but they haven't put me on medication yet because they're still running all these tests. i actually had a throat ultrasound on wednesday and i'm waiting to see if i have any nodules ughughughu i don't want a biopsy. did you gain a lot of weight? they said once i start the pills i'll start losing weight which i'm really looking forward too, i'm fattay. i can't wait to start them, i want to start feeling better inside and out. and thanks i'm trying not to be down about everything because it doesn't help but thanks for that some things do happen for a reason, losing all those friends showed me they were never really my friends all along, you know?
haha yay! jeez, one and a half, that went so fast!
thanks *hug* i think i faintly remember that, but i didn't know what it was at the time so it never stuck in my mind. but hey now that i can talk to you! we can bitch about it and stuff together
(posting it in two messages because there is apparently a limit!)
yeah that's true, i just miss his cute cheeks, hahaha. and yours!
ugh so much. i recently got diagnosed with hypothyroid, and that's changing me so much, like constant doctors visits and blood draws, lots of stress and it's really scary, waiting on test results.
then there's like, college and money. i don't have a job and haven't in a long time, and i owe my bank money, i owe student loans money, and its just insanity, i have 20 bucks left to my name and i need like 500 by next month. fml
then you remember those friends i had? well they decided to kick me out for no reason. it's so heartbreaking, there's a huge post about it in GP if you still have access.. if not i'll send it over. but yeah it's like i lost everyone in my life.
just everything is going on all at once and it keeps barrelling downwards and i don't know how to handle it
silly me, i can't add your myspace cuz i don't know it! haha what is it
yeah that's understandable, the internet is a scary place.
oh nice! my robe was blue and ugggly hahaha.
i've been up and down, a LOT going on with me, ughghughiughugh. i wish life would be like "Hey jess isn't doing so well, lets do something nice for her" but nooooo
YAY okayokay i'll add you FINALLY a way to talk to you, hahaha.
aww is he really? you need to take some more pictures
! i'm so proud of you did you have to wear that god awful robe and everything?
haha you have mentioned it, but still
get an email so we can still talk!
i was all worried
or at least get msn or aim or skype or SOMETHINGGGG because yous a hoe and i missed you x 345w2345345
and are you all done high school now?
gaaaaaah seriously i sent you like 5 emails and i got sadder and sadder and was like "maybe she forgot to check?"
and then i kept hoping ONE DAY you'd be like "i miss jess" and come back or something
don't dooo that i missed you so much seriously <333 i never wanna stop talking to you you're like my favouriteeee
honestly made my life with that comment right there
what the helllll ggggggggiiiiiiirl!!!!
I never knew you but you see cool, and you should post more
I miss you.
I miss you
d'anna someone bumped a thread and i thought you were back again
it just made me miss you even more cuz you neveverereverver replied to my emails.
</3 please sign on and see this
you're a butthead and never email me back!
oh wow, you're still alive!
and you? I'm so glad to see you back.
Not good. Life is full of bad luck these days =/
:O Welcome back