Sometimes I feel like I'm completely changing myself so that people will like me. I do things I normally wouldn't say, and say things that I don't really believe.

And to make it worse, it's not like it works anyways. I don't talk to most of my friends outside of school. Occasionally I'll get emails or IMs maybe, but not really. I don't think I've talked to any of my school friends since break started. I have a few friends outside of school, but I don't really see any of them anymore either. I have a few friends over the internet, but it's not the same.

It makes me sick, lying about stuff just so people will like me. But it's like, once I started it was too hard to stop. Like, I would seem boring to people because there's not really anything special about me.

A lot of times I can't even make conversation with people. I don't even know why. I just have trouble talking to people, I guess. There's a few people I can talk to, but I've known most of them for a long time. Most of my conversations have those awkward silences in them.

I'm not even sure what to do anymore.

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Stop there.

DO NOT try changing yourself. I was once in that position where i felt that out of it that i tried to fitt in, change myself hoping people would like me.

You are as special as anyone and deserve to be treated that way. To tell you the truth you're probably a lot nicer than those people, be yourself, you'll come off a lot better

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"you make my heart melt"

just tell the truth. if they dont like you for who you are, they are not real friends. you'll find a true friend at some point. dont worry.

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Mr "online".

that sounds exactly like me. like every word of that.

i have a couple friends i actually hang out with...but i havent in a while. i have some friends in school but we dont hang out or anything other then that.

especially on AIM, i dont start convsersations. i always feel like im bothering people...sometimes that talk to me but i usually dont send the first IM.

n aside from a couple friends ive hung out with for years i cant just call people n set sumthin up.

its even worse when its with my gf, thats the main reason i screwed up my last 2 relationships.

Wow.. Sounds like me .. I have many friends at school and i get along with them so well in school but when im outside of school i really do not talk to them.

I find it hard to make friends because of my appearance (6"8 scary MF) and I don't try to change myself. I'm great ful for the friends i have in school and i think if i was to talk to them 24/7 outside of school i would get sick of them.

Anyways I don't think changing yourself would make you any happier because if your not happy in your "new" self when will you be happy.

Keep the principles live life by them and most of all live life with a smile

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Got Milk?

^ Whoa you're tall. I feel really short now (5'1")

Thanks for the advice everyone. I kinda forgot I posted this. lol.

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Browneyes i hope you're not trying to change yourself because you seem such an awesome person

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"you make my heart melt"

Aw, thanks.

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You should always try to be yourself there are always more people you will meet that will like you for who you are.