I've been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, and i struggle with it daily so much so, infact that i've been classed as a disabled person recently it's just started to get better, but a year ago, i had another problem which i never really spoke about to anyone.

I was addicted to dieting, laxatives, calorie counting excersise, my life, was, quiet litrally, this is how it would go, i would get up weigh myself about 6 times, have a drink of green tea, then some normal tea, then take diet tablets, then green tea tablets,have some diet red bull, go walk the dogs, spend and hour on the treadmill spend another 2 hours doing sit ups, push ups, step ups, running/swimming, i'd count every single calorie, somtimes i would fast, i would take my moms prescription meds to lower blood sugar, and use her xenical i lost 70lbs but felt like i looked exactly the same, i was living hell, i couldnt focus on ANYTHING my head was always calories calories calories, i was so obsessed, i made myself throw up, tried to buy ipecac, i would go running at 3am in the snow, n the rain, freezing cold until i couldnt feel my feet, i felt so trapped, now after a year, im better, i think, i have put weight on again n im ok with that, but somtimes i get scared and depressed still about the way i look, somtimes i still make myself throw up maybe twice a month, and i wonder if it will ever fully go away or if ill get dragged back into that cycle again... i never knew if i had a problem, i never spoke to anyone about it, but i think i did, i got so severly depressed over the things i ate when it wasnt that much at all, i overdosed on diet pills daily and put a needle and thread through my lips once to litrally try and sew my mouth shut, i think about it now, and i cant believe i ever escaped, i cant believe the things i did the feelings i had, it was a long 3 years...

but now i wonder, can anyone tell me, will it ever fully go away? will i ever stop throwing up completly or worrying? my teeth are damaged to the point im terrified of dentists, and i cant get weighed in public, i wont let a docter weigh me

its not a problem now not affecting me every single day well, yeah i think about it, but its really not as half as bad as it was how can i get rid of this completly did i even have a problem to begin with? i dont know it seems hard to believe with how fat i am these days, heh

Learn to use periods. I couldn't even make sense of that larger paragraph.

And you wanna know how you stop throwing up completely? Like this: *stops throwing up* Yeah. Do it. As long as you're not involuntarily throwing up, you can stop.

And newsflash: They make medication for anxiety and panic disorders. But I highly doubt anyone would classify you as disabled simply because you have an anxiety disorder.

~Maggot

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I'm on Medication for my anxiety disorder, Sertraline. 150mg And my mom recieves carer support because i cant look after myself, Depression along with the anxiety i forget alot of things, like taking medication, washing, basic every day stuff so yes they do classify me as disabled for it

Stop? yeah just stop? lol ill get right too it why didnt i think of doing that before posting here???

I didn't post here for people to tell me to "Stop" if you had any idea how anyone but y'aself feels you would understand it's not that easy.

and as for my grammer? i couldnt finish school because of my anxiety disorder, but thanks for bringing the obvious to my attention.

Then stop whining about it.
Sweetie, I have a panic disorder and depression, and it doesn't make you forget shit. It makes you miserable and paranoid. Don't try to BS someone who's actually in the situation you claim to be in.
*shrugs* I'm guessing just 'cause you're a dumbass.I've also had an eating disorder, so don't try to tell me I don't understand, mkay? Mkay.Again, don't try to feed me bullshit when I know more about this than you do.

~Maggot

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OK, if you say so, thanks.