I am not sure what it is yet ive been seeing several doctors and had an abnormal EEG showing a high risk for seizure and im not sure if this is because i moved during the test or if i really have something wrong with my brain. Also i have been seeing a counselor who thought my problem was severe stress causing depersonalization disorder or an emotional dissociative disorder. I guess my real problem is i feel all the time like i have no sence of self. I feel like i have no awareness of my being. It is as if i am just a robot or a body and i dont really exist. Its causing me alot of problems to the point that i can barely leave my own apartment or hang with my friends. I basically cant lead a normal life. After seeing the psychologist for counseling and trying a couple of medications nothing has helped and im left to deal with this on my own atleast until i find out what is wrong with me. This process may take months. In the meantime how can i feel real again? What can i do to find myself again so i feel like a real human or like i am connected to reality. I just want people to throw out any random idea even a simple one that i can try becasue im desperate now. The problem has gotten so severe i just feel like i cant continue with my life at times. I need any idea that people have that makes them feel connected somehow. I seemed to have lost my sence of self. I just want to know some ideas that may help with relaxing, connecting myself back to the real world, or feeling real.

Thanks

Do you feel there is anything you enjoy? Or do you not really feel like you enjoy anything?

If there is something you feel like you enjoy, you could ask a few friends to do that with you and then you may feel connected to them.

Sorry to hear you are in this situation.

Richiix

It does seem that you are disconnected to the world at times. Usually this happens when you aren't grounded to mother Earth and the condition worsens when you are very stressd out. I mean I sometimes feel that way, too. Better I've adjusted myself to feel fine when it does happen because before I felt very scared when I "wasn't myself" anymore.


Though the doctors may help in some psychological behavior it doesn't mean there is a pill for everything, at least not yet. As plan B) I would go to someone who practices energy flow, such as a Reiki master, because if there is a break in your energy, that can make a huge difference in your life or hardly any. You can also go to a psychic for some help since they can sense if something is wrong and even where the source is so it can be fixed.


But the first thing I'd do is try to ground yourself and try to make a connection to mother earth usually when you meditate. Now not many people would like to believe that mediation helps since it deals with metaphysics, but at least try it. It really does help calm your mind, find who you are, and ground you to earth.


Plus, like Schreechoo said, "Find something you enjoy" or enjoyed the most before/during the disconnection feeling and try to connect yourself back to that image or thought. It helps you remember what you are and who you are.


A good site on meditation would be found on google on the first page when you type in "mediation and grounding".


And remember, positive thinking always helps in every way.

Hope I helped! Would like to hear results or anything on this matter from you.

Comedy show! Nothing like laughing to let you know you're alive

I like that idea ... Jimmy Carr kills me hes so funny ^^

Richiix

thanks for your guys ideas. the neurologist told me yesterday it didnt matter that i moved during the test but the abnormal waves were in the temporal lobe. depersonalization is a symptoms of temporal lobe epilepsy. Also since my previous psychiatrist told me i had anxiety that could further exascabate the problem. Im currently taking a medication called Keppra for this but i havent noticed a difference yet. I just started the meds yesterday though.

I would like to try meditating but i am not sure how to go about it. The comedy idea is good so i might try to rent out a movie or something once a week and see if laughing helps. Ive been swimming every day since i enjoy that. As far as the problem goes its been about the same although i am trying to force myself to go out more so i can lead a normal life. Its hard my sister is 4 years younger than me and shes already driving and im not and it seems im just falling behind. I usually find myself fine one moment and the next it seems im not alive or im an empty body. When i was running on the treadmill i found i could crank up the speed to 9 mph and i couldnt really feel any pain because it was like i wasnt there at all. weird but i guess i pushed myself harder.

thanks for the ideas all

Glad you are feeling better =] The comedy will certainly help and you are in the right track with exercise, that will also help!

The meds will probably still take a while to get working... give it some time

Richiix

i dont know. im trying the medication they gave me and i havent noticed a difference. I wonder when i will wake up from this nightmare. I feel like i dont belong in my own skin like im possessed. I dont know how i can continue my life like this. nothing i try seems to be working :*(

I dont know what sports you like but getting yourself behind a good sporting team wether it be soccer, rugby, cricket, baseball, gridiron, basketball... whatever usually gets your blood pumping and being around a bunch of people could help too