I don't think I've told anybody this but it's just driving me mad.

I'm sick of life.

I just don't see the point of living to die. That's all we do, all in the end we die and it's just so depressing. Most of the time I fake my happiness. The only time I'm genuenly happy is when I'm with my boyfriend which isn't much.

I was just sat on the bus coming home from college just thinking, 'well, whats the point in all of this? why do we make such an effort when in the end it will be for nothing'.

I just can't pretend to enjoy it.

It's like, education ok?
After this next coming year I have the choice, university or work.
I can't stand the idea of spending more of this pathetic life doing more learning when in the end what will come out of it? better grades for a higher earning job. Fair enough but once were old and stopped working, in the end it will mean nothing when were dead.

I just don't get what all the fuss is about.

And no I'm not going to commit suicide. I'm to weak to do something like that.

What does all this mean though? am I depressed or something?

i dunno, i think that you're making death out to be a negative thing when we really don't know if it is.

i know exactly how you feel though, very contained and imprisoned, right? I think that people like us need to get off the main road (haha i'm so cheesy ) and do something that we really enjoy. You don't sound like someone who would be happy at a desk job. I think you need to do some soul searching- travel or try new things. Like, try pole dancing!!! It's put in a negative stereotype but it's amazing exercise! Try proving to others that what they think is bad might not be if they had a more open mind.

There's tons of stuff to do while we are alive and we don't know what we are gonna be able to do after death, so we might as well do it now, ya know?

I dunno if I helped but I really hope it gets better for you! Good luck!

I know what you mean, I think it from time to time.
Just gives you a reason to enjoy life as it comes and make the most out of it!
x

Actually thats wierd no one actually knows the point in life Hmm maybe just to enjoy it hehe

u have to grab life and enjoy it. only way to enjoy it is by doing the things u love and make you happy. u said u love being with ur bf. hang around with him and talk 2 him about ur situation

To me, death is the dirving force before our lives.

Its a race, to see who can do more. You can alter your time line, but ultimately you don't completely control it. Why strive for things great in your life? For immortality?

Does immortality not appeal to you? How would you like to never die? Never leave society?

I'm not Christian. This is more of a old European Pagan value. Yet when you die, you leave a legacy behind. If you did great things, you will be remembered. Maybe you will do something great and history will record your name. That is immortality. Or at least your life will live on, you will influence others have you. You will influence them after your death.

Maybe you'll die in some violent way for something higher then yourself. People will remember it.

You live, for we humans strive for greatness in the end. Not material comfort. Which is why the rich are never really happy, unless they use their money to achieve great things. You've just realized unconsciously that the main goal most search for is material comfort. Then you realize that, that is just not what is satisfying. Still thinking thats the goal we must achieve, you begin to doubt life itself. You just need to realize that material comfort is not it. You strive for feelings and greatness. The great feeling after you achieved something.

Work harder. I honestly think you have the most potential out of all of the stories I've read here. Because you seem to be on the pathway to a better life. Realizing that our society as a whole doesn't give you that better life, which is one striving for something higher.

I hope I make sense. You must just find something to love passionately, then begin creating your legacy.

I just realized something odd. I don't really believe in any afterlife. So I won't see what I do. Yet I still think its worth leaving the most powerful legacy you can. Its just a different value system. One you should adopt in my opinion.

iMush, You are lacking endorphin right now and you should try getting it pumped up in some ways. Exercise is a good one, just go jogging casually or even hit the gym then you will see that there is a point in life, a lot of ones really. I have been in your shoes and that's what got me up. Doing nothing but sitting in front of computer reading other people's opinions will help you keep feeling suicidal/depressed/angry/frustrated/etc.

I truly understand what your going through because I am going through the exactly the same thing. All I do no is that there is a point in everything whether we can see it or not. I'm sure everyone has these thoughts once in there lives. If you want to talk or anything i'm always here.

the point of living is life.

why are we here? i have no idea. i don't think anyone can answer that. but, your point here makes my head hurt. just overly thinking it all. i wish i could tell you why we are here, but i honestly have no idea. but the thing is, that if we weren't her we wouldn't ponder why we are here.

does that kinda make sense?

Live your life to the max..

I suddenly do not give a f*ck. I have reached a point in my life where I just don't care about anything. Life itself, how we are all here running around doing pointless shit. When you sit back and look at it all, it is so stupid. I used to be a really insecure shy guy, I would care a lot about what people thought about how I looked, etc... But now I don't care, because I know I will die some day and never exist ever again, which is sad to think about. Going to college and busting my ass for what? a good lifestyle, psh... I always think about this, especially when I am out in public, watching everyone do their thing. I am not afraid to do anything anymore, because why should I be? I could be hit by a car tomorrow and be done with. So I plan on living my life to the fullest, because I am depressed if I don't. I do not believe in god or any of that bullshit. And if you do, then **** you, you are an idiot. I hate stupid people, WHICH IS PRACTICALLY EVERY MOTHER****ER ON THIS PLANET. I just laugh when I see stupid people doing stupid things. I would just say to myself "haha what the ****" as in wtf, wtf am I here for in this moment of time watching this shit happen? So **** it all, don't worry about anything and just enjoy yourself, do what you always were afraid of. Run a ****ing red light, hell get a ticket just to get a ticket and say **** it. That is my point of view.

I like you man. The way you've been through life and how you interpret it is identical to mine. F*** being an insecure, shy guy who get stepped on by everyone. Hell, why not become Tony Montana? At least you could get a harlem of young virgins and shitload of everything but not give a **** about anything else.

Just try and be happy.

Think about the good things.
(:

It's hard to be happy when you get none and you see the other asshole who pretty much treat me like shit get all the girls.

Fuggin' 'ell. You only get one life, so bastard use it.