This is a long story...but I will really appreciate help...

So I have a am in the peak of aspergers syndrome,I don't really have all of the symptoms,my mom is actually doubting that I have it.
But it is hard for me to talk to people and start conversations...

Anyway this is a story from my old school,I live in Costa Rica so schools are different:

There was this stupid ugly german guy David I liked.I liked him from the first day of school since I caught him staring at me.I didn't really hang out with anyone at school,I sat at a bench playing with my nintendo ds,and then he came and we just stared at eachother and I liked it.One day it was recess and I was in my classroom and he was in his and there's this opening so you can hear.So I heard him and my english teacher talking and then I heard a wisper and then I heard "you like her,HER? but she's autisic"
and I immediatly knew it was me.I was having an autistic behivior since I was by my self and not talking to anyone.Anyway,I heard David say
"I don't care" but apperently he did.

I was feeling bad so I went to an aspergers advice website,Wrong Planet,
and I posted how much I liked him and what the teacher said.
Most of them were like talk to David,be his friend and tell on the teacher.
I was never going to tell on the teacher.His name was mr.taggart.
So I called him mr.faggart.

Anyway David apperantly found my posts because I posted it as "Love is So Complicated please help me..." and I heard him the next day saying "I found her..." I didn't care about it and kept on posting and then everyone in school were asking him about the posts...

Then David and his friends started bothering me by clapping their hands because they think the noise will bother me and started calling me a reject behind there backs and calling me a sped.

Then I had a crisis because I am bipolar appereantly and I had to leave school for the rest of the year.I was in 9th grade.

If you never talk, how do you know you like him...Just because you stared at each other?

So I left school and stayed at home for the rest of the year.
Then I started 9th grade again the next year.Im supposed to be in 10th.

So anyway I started school.It was a new year.I wasn't going to ruin my year this time.
No one talked to me the first days but then they did and I started hanging out with them.I was happy.For the moment.

I fell for a few people.One of them was this guy named Jack.He's in my class.I don't like him anymore because once he came in a shirt with a tag that said :"cool boyz"
and I got turned off.It reminded me of "oskcosh begosh" you know that baby brand.
And I saw his feet once and I didn't like it.

Anyway,I had this pet tiger on my hi5 (like a myspace) and he was named Jackie.And of course David was friends with Jack and told him I liked him and that I named the tiger after him (TOTALLY UNTRUE) and then I heard him and his friends giglling and saying "she named him jack!" That was really embarresing.Then I heard a few classmates saying "Aspergers" "Sindrome de Aspergers" and then I knew who it was...David.He is pretty popular.

So I got really pissed off at David,and since I knew he was checking my hi5...
"David I really REALLY HATE YOU!! F U!!! I didn't name the tiger after you know who,I don't even like him,I like this blonde guy" (which was untrue...at the moment)

I was really wishing,before I went to school that there would be a blonde guy,since those are my type.I really like blonde blue eyed boys...anyway the first day of school I saw him outside along with Jack,and I just noticed him.I didn't know his name and he was like the only real blonde guy in school so David knew what I was talking about...

Because it was looking,it was gazing,it was when you like someone staring...I don't know how to explain it...

there's still more!

So when I passed by the blonde guy would stare at me,kind of smiling and I got creeped out.But then I liked it.I started liking him.

When I was sitting on the tables he would stare at me...and I was happy.

But then my happiness ended.On valentine's day,I heard him say to his friend
"If she thinks I want her,she is really lost" which means that he didn't want me and he was just toying with me.

Then I heard someone asking him Do you like her? And he was like "No she has aspergers!" and then I started posting on my hi5 stuff like I thought I wasn't going to date anyone for a long time because of David and then the next day when the blonde guy saw me he would crack up and make fun of me behind my back.And his friends too,everytime they saw me they would either stare or crack up.

Then one day I think him and his friends were making alot of noise in front of me to scare me...and one of my friends got scared actually.

Blonde guy name will be changed to Jackass,don't confuse him with jack.

Anyway Jackass is a manwhore and he would be with girls in front of me.
For his pleasure and to annoy me.I know it was to annoy me.
Anyway once he kissed a girl in front of me in the bathroom.It was a pucker up.
He was like "kiss me" and she did.And I know she's not his girlfriend because the girl has one and she's bi.

Jackass has stopped bothering me,at least not in front of me I think because on my hi5 I posted a sad face and said please stop.




please stop...

please...

and he is looking at me again,but I know he doesn't like me.My friend says that if he liked me he would tell David to stop,not join him.He's just toying with me again.

I am currently staying in my class alone drawing.I talk to people like normal,but I just don't hang out with anyone.My choice,people ask me why,but I just say because I don't want to follow people around.One of the main reasons is to stay away from Jackass and stop liking me.He has hurt me so much.

I stay in the office while we wait for the bus so I won't see him.
Once I was in the office and he came and I accidently made eye contact with him,and when I was finally getting over him,I liked him again.And I can't always stay in my class so he looked at me when I was on the table with his stupid sunglasses,but he looked so adorable.I always try not to look at him but I did once I can't help it.
Im really starting to like him again.I feel like crying sometimes.I know I will never be with him and that he's just toying and I get so frusterated and I want him to leave the school so I won't see him anymore.

Well,he's in the last year so he will be leaving this year,but still I can't wait that long!

How can I avoid him and stop liking him.My friend says he is not someone I should want being with...

I know this is really long,but please reply,any help will be greatly,greatly appreciated.
I can't talk about this with my mom because she doesn't believe me.And it's easier for me to tell the whole story by writing this down,then actually saying this in person.
Please,please help...

Talk to your school guidnce counsler. And also there in Costa Rica or something, there is a helpline that you can call. Or its something where they give doctors an AIM and you can AIM them about help for what you have. For people who are scared to talk about it, or cant ask anyone. Ill see if i can find it sometime soon, ask around here 2, IF ANYONE else knows this please help.

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Best advice I can think of to get over someone, is to get a different boyfriend. Is there anyone else you like?

Kids can be cruel when it comes to aspergers, and it makes me sad to know that people call you names because of it. Especially, since a very high majority of people have a slight case of aspergers, even if it is small, and mostly when it comes to men. A lot of the people calling you names may have a slight case of it too.

If you don't like anyone else, and aren't interested in finding a new boyfriend - just try not to think about him. Time heals all wounds, as a wise man once said.

Well, that’s really deep, it sound like you are a very different girl, in a good way, they don't know what their missing out on. (Those guys I mean) id bet you would be the type to love back and not lead someone on. Remember you will find someone worthy those guys aren’t worthy of you

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Stop falling for people who gaze into your eyes, it's like an automatic "WE MUST LIKE each other" for you...
And stop being picky on who you like.... (stopped attraction cus of a guys feet? wtf?)

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wow that's a love story, only no happie ending, yet. Anyway, since you like that jackass so much, you should get his attention by doing something he never expected. stand up to him (or David.) just talk to him If he listens or embarrass him in front of his girlfriends, or punch him in the face, lol okay maybe not that. Get him to notice you in a good way.
Or just get over him and find some other cute guy.

correct me if im wrong but doesn't aspergers affect your understanding of non-verbal interaction (body language). i hate to say it but it does sound like you've been misjudging peoples social cues (mistaking a glance for a romantic eyeing). however this absolutely ins't grounds for people to be making fun of you or excluding you. i have no idea how you can change your judgement, but i think your best bet for over coming this situation is with words, talk to the boys who were mean to you or maybe next time you think one way or another about how someone is acting, ask yourself if that's the true message their sending, i hope this helps.

oh, i didn't know that. I'm sorry. (I feel like an idiot.) Anyway, you should just have confidence in yourself and don't let them get to you. Try ignoring them as much as possible. And yeah, just get over the guy.

"An effective way to deal with predators is to taste terrible."