Im in a weird mood tonight.
Like, Im sad and depressed.

I was talking to a friend tonight and I realized that this is the year that everything changes.
When school starts it going to be so awkward and weird.
The guy Im in love with barely talks to me anymore after breaking my heart.
My girl best friend and her boyfriend just broke up as well.
And my guy best friend now has a new girlfriend and wont be hanging out with us anymore.

Im fucking lost.
I dont know who I am anymore.
Everything that once was my life is now disappearing before my eyes.
And there is absolutely nothing I can do to stop it.

Its my last year in high school. And Im going to lose half my friends anyway.
I dont want to lose them already. I want to have fun. I want to be stupid with them one last time before we go our seperate ways.

Its hitting me that I wont have high school as a security blanket anymore.
And it sucks.

End of rant.

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Yeah, I have the same thing. Except I'm thinking about when school ends.

We have one year left and the last year is always a bit shorter than any other year. Me and my friends have our little "crew" and we always hang out together, in and out of school. It makes me sad to think that after school finishes we won't be seeing each other much at all. No more days out anywhere or mucking about at school. I used to think that I'd be over the moon when school ends, but I've realised it's completely the opposite.

Although I don't have the problem you mentioned, like friends going different directions. My girl best friend recently broke up with her boyfriend. She was fed up with boyfriends (and she still seems happy now anyway), and them splitting up has given me a chance to become a bit closer to her.

But boy, I never realised how much I'm gonna miss school =(

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