OK i am a 14 year old guy and i have not have a girlfriend since grade five. in grade five my girlfriend dumped me hard and ever since I've been very shy and unconfident around girls. i cant even tell if girls like me any more.since it has been a while since i did something with a girl a couple years ago i started fantasizing about guys. watching gay porn, thinking a bout guys instead of girls and shit.i have even done sexual things with a guy i had a crush on.the thing is that I'm a smart guy that over analyses thing and i only feal that homoarousel to "jocks" jockstraps, sport gear, sniffing jockstraps. so i thing that i thought that i was gay because i was attracted to naked athletic men but i think that all along i have been attracted to their jock straps (espeshially hockey jocks). so i when and finally watched straight porn were the girl was with a hockey player and sniffed his jock and then they had sex. i liked this. but the main reason i cant be gay is because when i had those gay interactions(wich NOBODY knows about) i always was strongly disgusted by it. and when i watch gay porn after I'm done masturbating i think this is disgusting, and i would hate to be gay.i also think how awesome it would be to have a girlfriend. i guess what I'm trying to say is do you think my lack of confidence over time lead to the discovery of a fetish which was masked by homosexuality? and the main question is am i gay? and if i was, i am a fighter (in this case mentally) if i want something done i will get it done no matter what i have to do . so if i terned out to be gay do you think it would be possible not to surpress it but to completely fight it off.

I'm a hockey player, so now I'm scared. STAY AWAY. Just kidding. Buy seriously.

To the actual topic. I believe your not gay, but bi. The way you are is suggesting to the idea of bi, since you like the homosexual pornography, yet prefer ladies in real life..

Bi is the only thing I could actually think of for you.

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"and i hate gay ppl"

What a dick.






Anyways, you probably have a fetish or something.

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sorry if i offended you i did not mean that in a derogatory way

Your 14... just be a kid.

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I hate people who hate homophobes.

On topic I can only hope you are able to suppress how you feel for your own sake, it's possible to suppress but alot of people probably don't try, good luck.

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I don't think I said anything about hating him, did I? I hate people who do stuff like that.

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#1: everybody has their own take on homosexuality, fighting someone over it seems just sorta useless

#2: I think you're probably just sorta bi-curious as of now. If you aren't ok with being gay or bi or whatever, being that it doesn't seem major then just keep it to yourself.

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I agree!
kids are really starting early these days.. just enjoy being 14 and have fun jeez you don't need to worry about that stuff just yet.

So what if he hates gays, he's not the only one...it's not something to argue about. Tone it down, people

You never know, maybe it's just a phase, you can grow out of it...

Anyway, just enjoy being 14 like everyone else said...don't take life so seriously...

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thanks allot everyone i will try not to worry about it but its hard for me because i always over think situations to prepare for the future

Don't over-think, it just makes you worry.

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i know it makes be worry allot but its not like you can just forget about life's problems i mean i would envy any one that can do that successfully

I'm highly against homosexuality.

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