I want to scream until my lungs burst....
For the longest time now I have been having these very strong feelings towards my good friend. We talk a lot about everything and have so much in common. We kid around a lot as well and are close. She knows that I have issues with depression and cutting. But she dosen't know that I am Bi, and that lately I have thinking about her in sexual ways. It makes me nervous to be around her when where alone... These thoughts are driving me crazy, I tend to not sleep at night because of my dreams of her. But I can't help it... I find her just so... attractive and sexy.
Sometimes she makes comments like "wouldnt be fun to play strip twister, huh?" and look at me with the expression....I swear I felt like I dyed...but I dont know what she really meant by that...
I sometimes think that I like woman more than men now...
I'm so sexually confused my head hurts when I think about it.
I want to tell her, but I am scared of what she'll say. I'm sacred of rejection, I'm scared that I'll lose it and cut myself again...I dont know if I could handle not being able to stay her friend, I'd break. I dont want to lose her to my feelings, but if I dont tell her, I'll break as well.
I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.....I want to just cry and scream until my lungs burst....
For the longest time now I have been having these very strong feelings towards my good friend. We talk a lot about everything and have so much in common. We kid around a lot as well and are close. She knows that I have issues with depression and cutting. But she dosen't know that I am Bi, and that lately I have thinking about her in sexual ways. It makes me nervous to be around her when where alone... These thoughts are driving me crazy, I tend to not sleep at night because of my dreams of her. But I can't help it... I find her just so... attractive and sexy.
Sometimes she makes comments like "wouldnt be fun to play strip twister, huh?" and look at me with the expression....I swear I felt like I dyed...but I dont know what she really meant by that...
I sometimes think that I like woman more than men now...
I'm so sexually confused my head hurts when I think about it.
I want to tell her, but I am scared of what she'll say. I'm sacred of rejection, I'm scared that I'll lose it and cut myself again...I dont know if I could handle not being able to stay her friend, I'd break. I dont want to lose her to my feelings, but if I dont tell her, I'll break as well.
I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.....I want to just cry and scream until my lungs burst....
[SIZE=2]-Feeling low on self esteem, and energy. I'm a starving animal when it comes to things like these-[/SIZE]