Okay, So I need a bit of help as what to do about my family. I don't intend to sound like a drama whore, but I literally have no one else to turn to.
I try to be a good kid, I do what I'm told, I just stay out of everyones way. But even so my dad insults me on a regular basis (with insults such as "Fatass" "Dipshit" "Ugly bitch" ect.), and when I stand up for myself, he just screams "FINE! I'LL JUST KILL MYSELF!" (He never does, he just says it to make me feel like shit for not being the submissive woman he expects me to be). He always screams it loud enough to where my grandma can hear it and thus she comes in and treats me like im some sort of hideous monster who wants to murder her precious baby boy. My grandma rejects me because im a "heratic" (i dont believe in god, so what? I'm not atheist or satanist or anything), and every day they just come in my room and just start going through everything I own, claiming theyre "cleaning" it, asking me what certain things are and insulting me saying my room is a "filthy pen befitting a pig like me". I wanna move out since i'm 18 now, but I don't have anywhere to go...They just get worse when I stand up for myself, what should I do?
I try to be a good kid, I do what I'm told, I just stay out of everyones way. But even so my dad insults me on a regular basis (with insults such as "Fatass" "Dipshit" "Ugly bitch" ect.), and when I stand up for myself, he just screams "FINE! I'LL JUST KILL MYSELF!" (He never does, he just says it to make me feel like shit for not being the submissive woman he expects me to be). He always screams it loud enough to where my grandma can hear it and thus she comes in and treats me like im some sort of hideous monster who wants to murder her precious baby boy. My grandma rejects me because im a "heratic" (i dont believe in god, so what? I'm not atheist or satanist or anything), and every day they just come in my room and just start going through everything I own, claiming theyre "cleaning" it, asking me what certain things are and insulting me saying my room is a "filthy pen befitting a pig like me". I wanna move out since i'm 18 now, but I don't have anywhere to go...They just get worse when I stand up for myself, what should I do?