I had a terrible week. Actually, I've been depressed for awhile now and things haven't gotten better. I'm not going to go through all the details of why I am. (unless you want me too.)
I take things personally, and someone I thought was cool talked shit about me right in front of me to his girlfriend. He was looking right at me.
I already wasen't going to one of my last school dances ever. I also got in a huge fight with my bestfriend, defriending him. These 3 things were the last straw, and I felt I was never going to get out, and it was too late. There was alot more behind this, but I'm a sensative dude.
I planned on committing suicide Saturday. I was thinking about driving my car at a high speed into a tree or something, and I almost did the night before.
I was playing video games, with a few friends, covering it all up. I was alone in my room, and I planned on doing the deed here soon.
I got a phone call. It was a friend from school. He always talked shit to me playfully, but we never hung out outside of school. He diden't have a group to go with to formal, and his gf had to go without him for some reason. I said sure. We played games and talked. This whole thing was so surprising.
I always had this huge crush on this girl. I never talked to her though because I coulden't man up. He did not know about this at all. Out of nowhere, he said " You know, you could probably get with so and so." I was really shocked. I had the biggest crush on her. It's like he read my mind or emotions or something. Pursuing her was my goal for like 3 months. It was his gf's best friend. He started talking about her, and how she acted about things, like he was telling me her flaws, but I was the same way.
The whole thing was so shocking to me.
My question is, do you believe this was some sign to stop me? A message to keep going?
I take things personally, and someone I thought was cool talked shit about me right in front of me to his girlfriend. He was looking right at me.
I already wasen't going to one of my last school dances ever. I also got in a huge fight with my bestfriend, defriending him. These 3 things were the last straw, and I felt I was never going to get out, and it was too late. There was alot more behind this, but I'm a sensative dude.
I planned on committing suicide Saturday. I was thinking about driving my car at a high speed into a tree or something, and I almost did the night before.
I was playing video games, with a few friends, covering it all up. I was alone in my room, and I planned on doing the deed here soon.
I got a phone call. It was a friend from school. He always talked shit to me playfully, but we never hung out outside of school. He diden't have a group to go with to formal, and his gf had to go without him for some reason. I said sure. We played games and talked. This whole thing was so surprising.
I always had this huge crush on this girl. I never talked to her though because I coulden't man up. He did not know about this at all. Out of nowhere, he said " You know, you could probably get with so and so." I was really shocked. I had the biggest crush on her. It's like he read my mind or emotions or something. Pursuing her was my goal for like 3 months. It was his gf's best friend. He started talking about her, and how she acted about things, like he was telling me her flaws, but I was the same way.
The whole thing was so shocking to me.
My question is, do you believe this was some sign to stop me? A message to keep going?