As the title says, I KNOW that I'm not fat (I'm 6stone and 5ft4") ... But I cannot eat if I feel like people are watching. I hate food, I love cooking; but to me food is a grotesque thing and the process of actually eating makes me feel ill.
I eat loads, so that people don't suspect anything, but I try to make myself throwup, but I'm really bad at that so usually I just double/triple the excersize I do. I'm a horserider and a dancer, I run alot aswell, so upping my excersize really isnt hard.
I have a fair few people in my family that are bigger and I love them to pieces but I don't want to be big myself; I'm known for my skinniness and bad as it is I really like that... So much that if one of my friends say their dieting I have a go at them, I think deep down it's because I want to be the skinny one and if they loose weight, I won't look as small?
I need help, I know I do, I just don't want to tell my mum; she'll be really angry
Karraa xxx
I eat loads, so that people don't suspect anything, but I try to make myself throwup, but I'm really bad at that so usually I just double/triple the excersize I do. I'm a horserider and a dancer, I run alot aswell, so upping my excersize really isnt hard.
I have a fair few people in my family that are bigger and I love them to pieces but I don't want to be big myself; I'm known for my skinniness and bad as it is I really like that... So much that if one of my friends say their dieting I have a go at them, I think deep down it's because I want to be the skinny one and if they loose weight, I won't look as small?
I need help, I know I do, I just don't want to tell my mum; she'll be really angry
Karraa xxx