One year ago when I was sixteen I was at a party and I was really intoxicated. This guy that was 21 and I were alone in a room and we had sex. I told him no, I didn't want to but he kept going further. I was so drunk I must have blacked out because I don't remember any specifics after that. I didn't even remember what happened until I found the condom wrapper the next morning.
I was a virgin up until then...
The worst part for me is I don't know what to SAY happened. Was I a slutty dumb *** who drunkenly had sex with some random dude, or was I legitimately taken advantage of... was it rape? (I know technically by state standards it was "rape" because of the age difference, but I don't a **** about that... I just want to know what it was)
I feel like if I could just give it a NAME it would be over with. If I could just pin it down, if I was to blame... everything would be okay.
Could you help? Please be honest, would you consider this rape?
I don't want to say I was raped when I really wasn't, and friends thinking I made a big deal out of nothing.
I was a virgin up until then...
The worst part for me is I don't know what to SAY happened. Was I a slutty dumb *** who drunkenly had sex with some random dude, or was I legitimately taken advantage of... was it rape? (I know technically by state standards it was "rape" because of the age difference, but I don't a **** about that... I just want to know what it was)
I feel like if I could just give it a NAME it would be over with. If I could just pin it down, if I was to blame... everything would be okay.
Could you help? Please be honest, would you consider this rape?
I don't want to say I was raped when I really wasn't, and friends thinking I made a big deal out of nothing.