I'm not really good at sports, streching, exercising, and I'm not flexible. My P.E coach makes me feel like total crap. One time my friend told her I did eight push ups, she looked at her with her cold eyes and gave her a dirty look not believing her when we recording how many push ups we could do. I did do eight push ups but my arms weren't in a *very accurate position. Anyways, this coach thinks I can't do anything. Honestly it's her job to help me improve, not to make me feel bad!*
I can't sing. I'm tone deaf, which sucks because I used to want to be a singer but my mom told me it's useless to be famous and she won't accept it. So those dreams are shattered.*
I can draw, but not like a professional. I'm good a doodling, and making designs and weird random stuff -doodling- but is that really a talent? On second thought, I'm not even that good!
I can say I'm good with technology but I don't want that as my talent!! There was no technology back then so what would I have if I lived in my grandma's age? And isn't any teenager these days good with their tumblr and blogs?*
I never get applauded by my creativity, just hearing people comment other people's work and ignore mine's. I don't get noticed that much.
I suck at being a makeup artist, I don't even put on makeup.
The only things I like (but will never be best at and have a whole freaking documentary about it) is: Swimming (oh so hard), writing, playing the piano (I'm having private lessons & I'm a beginner), painting, drawing, and nothing else. I'm just a fourteen year old loser. I wasn't in gymnastics for eight years. Or in a soccer league thing. I can't draw a human's face or a river. I have good grades in school, but I hate school. I can't dance. I BARELY know the piano because I'm still learning but it's not that fun so far.. I feel like I should blame my parents for keeping me locked up in my childhood years never taking me to YMCA stuff, getting me into ballet, sports, gymnastics, e.t.c no matter how much I begged them and how many promises they would break. I was in YMCA soccer last year, it SUCKED. I SUCKED. I embarrassed myself. I hated it. I hate myself.*
So what is a talentless loser like me going to do? I'm pretty much too old now to have experience with anything when I was younger, since I did nothing when I was younger but eat and sit at home on the Internet or t.v. Freaking parents who were always too busy for me.
**also did I mention that now as I'm entering the wonderful world of high school that I won't have time for ANYTHING? My parents made me wait for too long. If I had started doing some class in sports, or music a long time ago, I would be good at something now.
I don't know what to do at this point. Too many adults have put me down already..making me want to give up and not try again. I honestly don't want to give up, I really want to try but I have no one to support me and help me out.. People have already seen me fail...I just want to be noticed for something...for once.
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Sorry if this was long, I just needed to vent this out.
I can't sing. I'm tone deaf, which sucks because I used to want to be a singer but my mom told me it's useless to be famous and she won't accept it. So those dreams are shattered.*
I can draw, but not like a professional. I'm good a doodling, and making designs and weird random stuff -doodling- but is that really a talent? On second thought, I'm not even that good!
I can say I'm good with technology but I don't want that as my talent!! There was no technology back then so what would I have if I lived in my grandma's age? And isn't any teenager these days good with their tumblr and blogs?*
I never get applauded by my creativity, just hearing people comment other people's work and ignore mine's. I don't get noticed that much.
I suck at being a makeup artist, I don't even put on makeup.
The only things I like (but will never be best at and have a whole freaking documentary about it) is: Swimming (oh so hard), writing, playing the piano (I'm having private lessons & I'm a beginner), painting, drawing, and nothing else. I'm just a fourteen year old loser. I wasn't in gymnastics for eight years. Or in a soccer league thing. I can't draw a human's face or a river. I have good grades in school, but I hate school. I can't dance. I BARELY know the piano because I'm still learning but it's not that fun so far.. I feel like I should blame my parents for keeping me locked up in my childhood years never taking me to YMCA stuff, getting me into ballet, sports, gymnastics, e.t.c no matter how much I begged them and how many promises they would break. I was in YMCA soccer last year, it SUCKED. I SUCKED. I embarrassed myself. I hated it. I hate myself.*
So what is a talentless loser like me going to do? I'm pretty much too old now to have experience with anything when I was younger, since I did nothing when I was younger but eat and sit at home on the Internet or t.v. Freaking parents who were always too busy for me.
**also did I mention that now as I'm entering the wonderful world of high school that I won't have time for ANYTHING? My parents made me wait for too long. If I had started doing some class in sports, or music a long time ago, I would be good at something now.
I don't know what to do at this point. Too many adults have put me down already..making me want to give up and not try again. I honestly don't want to give up, I really want to try but I have no one to support me and help me out.. People have already seen me fail...I just want to be noticed for something...for once.
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Sorry if this was long, I just needed to vent this out.