Cutting. I can't keep myself from thinking about it. Emotions race through me. I feel so alone. Who can I talk to? Who actually cares? Nobody. I want to feel pain. It feels so much better than loneliness. It's so much better than feeling nothing at all. I can deal with physical pain. My body will heal me. But emotional pain is different. There is no cure. So I keep trying. Everyday is the same. I look at my phone- no texts. Nobody is concerned. Perfect. I know how to make myself feel better. My body can heal me. So why not? Why shouldn't I cut? It makes me feel better so what is the issue? I don't want help. I just want understanding.
I just want someone to talk to.
I just want someone to talk to.