-Sigh- Where do I even begin?..
I'm truly hoping someone out there will read this post and reach out because sometimes I don't know how I even manage in this family. I'm hoping someone out there will understand or just say they've been where I am. Sometimes I get so angry or lost that I cry.
I live in a household where my dad is an alcoholic. He drinks from 9 AM until he passes out later in the evening. My mom is mad about everything in life so I never know when I'll catch her in a good mood. Sometimes the littlest comment will set either of them off and you'll wish you didn't live here.
This past year I've spent more time with my friends now that they have their own apartment. This is the first time since I've been alive that my parents have known me to be out so much. I'm seventeen, 2 months from my 18th birthday. I never want to be home but I come home at proper hours unless I sleep over and even then I never spen more than 2 nights because I want to be respectful of my parents. I don't even hav respect for them. The part they don't know about my "friend's apartment" is that my boyfriend lives there. We have been together for almost 4 years and they don't know that part. They do however know him and are very accepting of who he is. My mom even let it slip that she would like to see me marry him one day..
My parents don't want to see me go anytime soon. My mom is always coming to me with her plans to have me stay living in my bedroom through college and into my career so I can help their financial instability and keep her from bring alone with my dad. I make myself sick sometimes because of how much unhappiness I have from living here.
They want me to stay as long as I can that they avoid allowing me to hav a drivers license until I'm 18 and refuse to let me finish my TWO credits of High School over the summer. I'll have to go through an entire year of school if I stay living with them.
However, in 2 months this won't matter to me anymore. I'll be moving with my boyfriend. In all honesty I'll be better off because the living conditions are significantly better. I know that I'll go through hell with my parents but aren't I more important?:(
I'm truly hoping someone out there will read this post and reach out because sometimes I don't know how I even manage in this family. I'm hoping someone out there will understand or just say they've been where I am. Sometimes I get so angry or lost that I cry.
I live in a household where my dad is an alcoholic. He drinks from 9 AM until he passes out later in the evening. My mom is mad about everything in life so I never know when I'll catch her in a good mood. Sometimes the littlest comment will set either of them off and you'll wish you didn't live here.
This past year I've spent more time with my friends now that they have their own apartment. This is the first time since I've been alive that my parents have known me to be out so much. I'm seventeen, 2 months from my 18th birthday. I never want to be home but I come home at proper hours unless I sleep over and even then I never spen more than 2 nights because I want to be respectful of my parents. I don't even hav respect for them. The part they don't know about my "friend's apartment" is that my boyfriend lives there. We have been together for almost 4 years and they don't know that part. They do however know him and are very accepting of who he is. My mom even let it slip that she would like to see me marry him one day..
My parents don't want to see me go anytime soon. My mom is always coming to me with her plans to have me stay living in my bedroom through college and into my career so I can help their financial instability and keep her from bring alone with my dad. I make myself sick sometimes because of how much unhappiness I have from living here.
They want me to stay as long as I can that they avoid allowing me to hav a drivers license until I'm 18 and refuse to let me finish my TWO credits of High School over the summer. I'll have to go through an entire year of school if I stay living with them.
However, in 2 months this won't matter to me anymore. I'll be moving with my boyfriend. In all honesty I'll be better off because the living conditions are significantly better. I know that I'll go through hell with my parents but aren't I more important?:(