My parents don't trust me, and accuse me of doing things I haven't done all the time. My mom spent the entire morning yelling at me because she lost her phone. It just sucks because I feel like I'm stuck. I'm too dependent on my parents for a place to stay, food, etc. so i can't just leave. I'm sick of my parents, my mom especially, talking down on me, like I'm a piece of dirt. I feel like she doesn't even care about me, because it's not like she ever makes any effort to come talk to me to solve the underline problem. She just yells at me every day for random bullshit because she's looking for something to complain about, and it's finally taken its toll on me after four years of it. Today after she yelled at me, I texted her and told her that sometimes she really makes me want to kill myself.... because she really does make me feel like shit and because I was too scared to say it to her face. I'm really anxious to talk to her whenever she gets home tonight, but I'm just scared that whenever we talk tonight that she's just gonna end up kicking me out or something when all i really want is to fix our relationship. please help. I really don't know how to approach her with all that I'm feeling.

Yeah, I tend to go out a lot to take my mind off stuff. It usually just makes things worse though because my mom is psycho and wants me home for no apparent reason. But yeah, like y'all were saying, I mostly just try to avoid her. The thing is she is ALWAYS looking for something to complain about. For instance, I have chores and one of my chores is to clean the dishes. Like ok, whatever, that's no problem, but obviously some days I'm not going to get around to doing it because I'm busy or whatever, and the fact that she can walk past the kitchen one day with dirty dishes and not say anything just proves to me that it's not the dirty dishes that are pissing her off... she just wants the attention. She wants to complain.

Things are going quite well lately, but it's always temporary. Thanks for the support though, I really appreciate it. It helps so much just to vent about it.