I just don't understand myself right now. For about a year and a half - two years I had been battling really difficult emotions, self harm and rejection issues. I went on antidepressants and saw a counsellor to try and help and eventually got into (what I thought was) a better place.
However, since I went back to school I just don't feel present. It's very difficult to describe but it's almost like I'm in a kind of interactive tour of the world, I'm ambling along through it but not actually a part of it. I have felt like it before but it seems to be becoming more prominent and its scaring me. It's weird because I'm not feeling suicidal or even severely depressed but I can't shake the urge to hurt myself, or put myself in a dangerous situation just to see what it feels like.
I'm guessing the first thing people are going to say is 'talk to your friends about how you feel' but I really don't want to be a burden to them, especially with Uni applications going on right now. And talking to a counsellor hasn't really worked for me, sorry...
I'd just really appreciate any kind of analysis or interpretation on this because I just don't know what's going on with me. Thank you so much.
However, since I went back to school I just don't feel present. It's very difficult to describe but it's almost like I'm in a kind of interactive tour of the world, I'm ambling along through it but not actually a part of it. I have felt like it before but it seems to be becoming more prominent and its scaring me. It's weird because I'm not feeling suicidal or even severely depressed but I can't shake the urge to hurt myself, or put myself in a dangerous situation just to see what it feels like.
I'm guessing the first thing people are going to say is 'talk to your friends about how you feel' but I really don't want to be a burden to them, especially with Uni applications going on right now. And talking to a counsellor hasn't really worked for me, sorry...
I'd just really appreciate any kind of analysis or interpretation on this because I just don't know what's going on with me. Thank you so much.