My boyfriend (of 5 years) and I got into a huge fight, over nothing... apparently I didn't tell him anything and blahblah... so yeah...
we fought over it and he said that he just can't be in a relationship and stuff, and I said fine, hung up, then cried and shit and then.... that was that... no more relationship.
My co director (theater) and I are extremely close... He's 27, and I'm 18... barely 18. but, anyways... I went into work with puffy eyes (no amount of makeup could help) and of course, he asked what was wrong. I explained, but by that time, we were starting to get the kids piling in for a show, and so we had to run around, get costumes on, makeup, everything else... that was fine... I was fine throughout the show and stuff..
We get off stage, get costumes sorted, put away, sign people's shirts, stuff like that... and I couldn't lift something... so Chris had to do it for me... and he told me to just go sit down and so... I did... and then one of the kid's had forgotten something, and it was by me, and so I handed it to Chris, who handed it to the kid, and then the kid left... we just went silent, so I kinda turned around to look at him and his face was like 6 inches from mine, and I just started bawling again...
we kissed, briefly, but it didn't go farther than that... I feel horrible. I don't know what to do. Matt and I aren't together anymore, it's not like I cheated, but... I just feel horrid... I've always had a crush on Chris, and I have for 8 years (which is when I started doing theater with him, he was my director at the time, and when I hit 16, I was able to start working with him, and we got closer) but Idk. Idk. I just don't. I feel horrid. Tbh, Idk how to feel.
Does this make me a bad person? Did I do something wrong? What do I do? In a way, I feel happy that I'm not with Matt and that I've got Chris behind me, but then in another way, I feel... hollow, because I don't have Matt anymore, and he leaves for college on the 24th...
Help me, please. What do I do.
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OH and Chris is single as well... he's been single since I turned 15...
we fought over it and he said that he just can't be in a relationship and stuff, and I said fine, hung up, then cried and shit and then.... that was that... no more relationship.
My co director (theater) and I are extremely close... He's 27, and I'm 18... barely 18. but, anyways... I went into work with puffy eyes (no amount of makeup could help) and of course, he asked what was wrong. I explained, but by that time, we were starting to get the kids piling in for a show, and so we had to run around, get costumes on, makeup, everything else... that was fine... I was fine throughout the show and stuff..
We get off stage, get costumes sorted, put away, sign people's shirts, stuff like that... and I couldn't lift something... so Chris had to do it for me... and he told me to just go sit down and so... I did... and then one of the kid's had forgotten something, and it was by me, and so I handed it to Chris, who handed it to the kid, and then the kid left... we just went silent, so I kinda turned around to look at him and his face was like 6 inches from mine, and I just started bawling again...
we kissed, briefly, but it didn't go farther than that... I feel horrible. I don't know what to do. Matt and I aren't together anymore, it's not like I cheated, but... I just feel horrid... I've always had a crush on Chris, and I have for 8 years (which is when I started doing theater with him, he was my director at the time, and when I hit 16, I was able to start working with him, and we got closer) but Idk. Idk. I just don't. I feel horrid. Tbh, Idk how to feel.
Does this make me a bad person? Did I do something wrong? What do I do? In a way, I feel happy that I'm not with Matt and that I've got Chris behind me, but then in another way, I feel... hollow, because I don't have Matt anymore, and he leaves for college on the 24th...
Help me, please. What do I do.
---------- Post added at 08:02 PM ---------- Previous post was at 07:51 PM ----------
OH and Chris is single as well... he's been single since I turned 15...