Uh, well as some of you know, I'm a relationship person so I don't do anything sexually with anyone I'm not with. I kind of frown upon people who have sex outside of relationships... I've also spoken about this guy before, I think in my last post.
Well uh, I went over a his house today and I'm sure you know where I'm going with this. It's the 4th time I've met up with him and I've spoken to him for months. We had cwtches and everything and then he ended up kissing me so I kissed him back and we kissed a few times. Then we went back to cuddling again for a few more hours, flirting a bit more and just snuggling and having a laugh. Then we kissed a bit more and then we were kissing like full on and a lot. I don't know why but I kept putting my leg over him when we were kissing a lot and I kept thinking 'HAN what are you doing?!'. It was like my mind couldn't control my body anymore. :O So we ended up stripping off after doing a bit of mutual masturbation, completely naked with him! I didn't feel in reality at all, I didn't really think about it and my body just did what it wanted! So we ended up having sex even oral! :O
I always thought that I would never go all the way with someone I wasn't with so I'm a bit like wtf?! I always said I wouldn't sleep with him because he's slept with a lot of people but I have! :O
Afterwards, we were both kind of in shock, him probably more so. He was like 'woah I didn't expect that!' and we sat on his sofa in silence for a bit but he put his hand on my leg and made sure I was okay. Then later on, we cuddled and kissed again, I sat on his lap whilst on his computer and he was cuddling into my back and we were laughing about things and got along fine.
I thought I'd feel bad because I still have feelings for my ex but I don't actually! He's been a dick recently and I thought, 'I'm single, I can do what I like'. But I feel like I've gone against myself a bit because I don't agree with it! I feel a bit slaggy and I have no clue what's going to happen with me and him! He said he has a crush on me but sometimes I can't see myself ever being with him.. ahhgosh!
I'm starting my new job tomorrow and I got this on my shoulders!
Well uh, I went over a his house today and I'm sure you know where I'm going with this. It's the 4th time I've met up with him and I've spoken to him for months. We had cwtches and everything and then he ended up kissing me so I kissed him back and we kissed a few times. Then we went back to cuddling again for a few more hours, flirting a bit more and just snuggling and having a laugh. Then we kissed a bit more and then we were kissing like full on and a lot. I don't know why but I kept putting my leg over him when we were kissing a lot and I kept thinking 'HAN what are you doing?!'. It was like my mind couldn't control my body anymore. :O So we ended up stripping off after doing a bit of mutual masturbation, completely naked with him! I didn't feel in reality at all, I didn't really think about it and my body just did what it wanted! So we ended up having sex even oral! :O
I always thought that I would never go all the way with someone I wasn't with so I'm a bit like wtf?! I always said I wouldn't sleep with him because he's slept with a lot of people but I have! :O
Afterwards, we were both kind of in shock, him probably more so. He was like 'woah I didn't expect that!' and we sat on his sofa in silence for a bit but he put his hand on my leg and made sure I was okay. Then later on, we cuddled and kissed again, I sat on his lap whilst on his computer and he was cuddling into my back and we were laughing about things and got along fine.
I thought I'd feel bad because I still have feelings for my ex but I don't actually! He's been a dick recently and I thought, 'I'm single, I can do what I like'. But I feel like I've gone against myself a bit because I don't agree with it! I feel a bit slaggy and I have no clue what's going to happen with me and him! He said he has a crush on me but sometimes I can't see myself ever being with him.. ahhgosh!
I'm starting my new job tomorrow and I got this on my shoulders!