I got horrible depression for some time now..
I try to express myself to people close to me. but they still dont understand :/..
When i explain people just think its normal.. but i know how teens can get "depressed" over little things. but im in deep.
I have crazy thoughts of it too.. i think of hurting people in great detail at times. think about hurting myself.. (haven't done that in ages.. imma try not to stoop down to that level, and ive been good so far) and sometimes thoughts of suicide. i know i can do it. and at times im just itching to do something that im thinking about.
people just comfort me like im just some teen who THINKS they have problems.
I know i do. and people dont get that.
The way i think worries about me too sometime.. i think differently than most. sometimes i feel like im the only person with a brain and everyone else is not seeing the world for what it really is.. its hard to get into detail.
Anywho.. what should i do.. i want help. i know i need it. i dont live with my parents. im 17. and have no insurance from them. so i dont know what to do..
going to my parents is not an option. people tell me to just go back. but i cant. theres no way im ever going to. thats not an option. and its something i dont really want to discuss.
I try to express myself to people close to me. but they still dont understand :/..
When i explain people just think its normal.. but i know how teens can get "depressed" over little things. but im in deep.
I have crazy thoughts of it too.. i think of hurting people in great detail at times. think about hurting myself.. (haven't done that in ages.. imma try not to stoop down to that level, and ive been good so far) and sometimes thoughts of suicide. i know i can do it. and at times im just itching to do something that im thinking about.
people just comfort me like im just some teen who THINKS they have problems.
I know i do. and people dont get that.
The way i think worries about me too sometime.. i think differently than most. sometimes i feel like im the only person with a brain and everyone else is not seeing the world for what it really is.. its hard to get into detail.
Anywho.. what should i do.. i want help. i know i need it. i dont live with my parents. im 17. and have no insurance from them. so i dont know what to do..
going to my parents is not an option. people tell me to just go back. but i cant. theres no way im ever going to. thats not an option. and its something i dont really want to discuss.