• People say that when boys grow up, they "man up". By that term, what we all normally think would be boys getting braver, more adventurous and of course, a little more mature. I thought that growing up would be cool and stuff but what i missed out in the process of "man-ning up" was the feeling of numbness. Before, the sight of those tear-jerking movies, a close friend dying or a mutilated corpse would get me nauseous or tears would cascade down my cheeks, now i just don't feel anything. It's rather odd and calming at the same time, but it also scares me. Whenever my family have an episode, i would obviously be there for my family but not out of care, out of numbness instead. I don't feel worried or anything even when things heat up. I say the right things but i myself feel like i dont mean it. I don't even put meaning in any word i say these days. The other day, my mother asked me a question that kinda stirred something within me: "Why dont i ever hug anyone". My response was "why should i?" Simple things like those don't seem important anymore. It feels like im loosing my humanity. Is this really what it means to grow up?
    • Re: Numbness

      You need to get in touch with your inner self. Does puppies not move you to feeling all warm or fuzzy? Even a little?

      I know that feeling, though. Emotionally detached. I feel that society pushes that on males, specifically. You have to make an effort to get in touch with your emotions. It's okay to be emotionally sensitive. It's actually quite beautiful, in my opinion. Anyways, holding back your emotions can be very unhealthy. Work at it!
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    • Re: Numbness

      I feel the same way. I just don't get phased by emotional things anymore. Hell, I saw a dead baby laying in a casket yesterday and I didn't feel anything for him other than respect.
      I think you'll have to get in touch with whatever the hell you've got inside that you're blocking out. I might have to do the same, but I don't really care to. :D
      [FONT="Arial Black"][SIZE="4"] Captain Cody [/SIZE][/FONT]
    • Re: Numbness

      I can't tell you an exact reason. But I feel the same way. For me I think it's because I've been through a lot. From watching a person die at a crash. To losing friend after friend. There just has to be a point where things don't get to you anymore. Maybe it's your body blocking things out so they don't slow you down. But I'm no psychologist so it's just my $.02
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