I need a little advice on how to handle the level of violence my dad brings when he gets shit faced. Almost every night nowadays he is coming home to immediately drink to get drunk. I would at least be able to accept that if my father was even tempered when drunk, but lately he has been lashing out at me and my brother. Mainly me of coarse, for sticking around. But he is more than just beginning to scare me, he is terrifying! Tonight he was throwing our only electronics around and shattered our laptop, then when I tried to stop him from breaking anything else he chased me up the stairs with a homemade torch! What should I do? I love my dad but things are getting way out of hand.
But I'm not close to perfect. I'm not close to sane. I'm not the one to worship. And I'm not the one to blame.