This is long and kind of deppressing but I appreciate anyone who takes the time to read it. So at the age of 19 I have the bleakest outlook on my life possible. Right now my best friend is a pathological liar and devotes every second of his time to his girl friend. He will not be going to college this fall and likley probably will never. I know and am friendly with a lot of people but not close to anyone that I can actually connect with. You would think my parents would be the people who would support me and at least show some care about me but they are more consumed with my younger brother and their jobs. My brother does really talk to me at all. As it relates to my relationships the longest only lasted a year and I become so lonley that minute any girl pays me any attention I latch on too quick and always mistake it for romance. I feel so detached that it physically hurts. I am a good student and did well my first year of college as a business student so my career options are open and as long as I keep working hard I can have any job I really want. But I am considering moving across the country or possibly Canada after school just because I really do need a fresh start. But my worst fear is being alone all my life and I live like that all the time. Any advice is appreciated. if your in a similiar situation as me talk to me. Thanks

Thanks man. That first year it felt like a lot of the same with people there mind you its a university of 16k people in where I just connected with no one it seemed just a lot of people I was friendly with. I still have 2 maybe 3 years there so we will see how it goes. The support is much appreciated!