Hi everyone, im just a 15 year old girl who needs help. So basically, my class this year is a new class with some previous classmates of mine. I got to know 3 other female friends and we bonded quite well so we became a clique of 4. everything was fine. after a few months, another girl from my class joined the clique which none of us are against it. I enjoyed my times with them n everything was ok. but one day, they just ignored me then I asked one of them what happened and if they are angry with me or something n she said yes. she sent me a whole long message telling me y they were unhappy with me n I accepted it. I apologized (I rlly meant what I said) n they accepted the apology n things were normal again.
so heres another incident:
I personally have a habit of keeping a diary which I write all my happenings in sch n abt some ppl I was angry with which I didn't tell anyone that's why I just kept it to myself n wrote in my diary. I bring the diary to sch n whichever lessons I go to as I have classes at different venues. so there was this particular subject lesson that I sat in between 2 of the ppl from my clique n of cuz I brought my dairy along. one of them saw my diary n asked wht it is n if she can read. I let her read only the entries that I wrote in 2013 (I stopped writing for almost 2 years since 2013 until this year) n I looked at her the whole time n made sure that she didn't read this year's entries (there were only abt 2 as I only started writing again not long ago at that point of time) n she didn't. the other girl also asked to read it which I did the same thing again. I know it may not be appropriate to bring my personal diary to sch but it was my own choice n also I shouldn't have let anyone read my diary but they were my best friends n I trusted them, really. so after abt a few days or week they started ignoring me n stuff again so I asked what happened (I asked the same person again). she told me n I just last seen her message. the things that she said (abt what I said abt her) were the things that I rlly didn't tell anyone but I only wrote in my diary. so I suspected that someone took my diary without my permission. at first I thought it was someone else (a guy but im not gonna say it here cuz its too long winded) but it turned out that it wasn't. I did not suspect them (my clique) but eventually someone (2 ppl) came to tell me that two ppl from my clique was spreading a picture of my diary to everyone (that's how they got to know what happened). that was only when I got to know that it was actually my "friends" who were doing that. btw, the two diary entries I wrote I complained abt 2 ppl, one of the girl from my clique n the guy that I suspected who took my diary at first). in the end the discipline master got to know abt it so we sat down to talk in the presence of the discipline master. the truth: [ one day (idk when) one of the girl from my clique went to take my diary because they were "curious" n suspected that I wrote something bad abt them. they saw the 2 entries n took a picture of it. n yah things go on... (too long to type out) n they were angry with me abt it like wth did they even take my diary n took a pic and show to everyone? n one of the girl send to it to the guy mentioned above as they were tuition friends n caused lots of trouble for me. n in the meantime when all these were happening, they were openly talking abt me on social media like askfm n instagram but they did not mention my name but it's obviously me. n during that period of time I got so depressed that I totally couldn't concentrate on anything I did, I couldn't sleep well, my appetite became worse, I was afraid to go to sch, I even thought of committing suicide which I eventually didn't as I did not have the courage to. but eventually things kind of got settled so yeah.
next incident:
two of the girls received hates on askfm which were asked anonymously n they suspected it was me n messaged me to ask abt it. I swear it wasn't me so I said no. one of them eventually replied "sorry to have misunderstood u (?)" then the other one asked me to screenshot my activity box on askfm n send it to her to make sure that it wasn't me. we started quarreling again n stuff n she still did not believe me after I had sent her the screenshot. she said that she would send me a qn on askfm I asked me to screenshot again to show her which I did in the end. she even called me shameless/dog n stuff. then she said that the one I sent was edited (which is true) but I denied as i edited because the ones that i left out were personal but I swear I wasn't the one who send them hates. so yah idk how im supposed to face them in sch n stuff n im back to becoming depressed again.
so heres another incident:
I personally have a habit of keeping a diary which I write all my happenings in sch n abt some ppl I was angry with which I didn't tell anyone that's why I just kept it to myself n wrote in my diary. I bring the diary to sch n whichever lessons I go to as I have classes at different venues. so there was this particular subject lesson that I sat in between 2 of the ppl from my clique n of cuz I brought my dairy along. one of them saw my diary n asked wht it is n if she can read. I let her read only the entries that I wrote in 2013 (I stopped writing for almost 2 years since 2013 until this year) n I looked at her the whole time n made sure that she didn't read this year's entries (there were only abt 2 as I only started writing again not long ago at that point of time) n she didn't. the other girl also asked to read it which I did the same thing again. I know it may not be appropriate to bring my personal diary to sch but it was my own choice n also I shouldn't have let anyone read my diary but they were my best friends n I trusted them, really. so after abt a few days or week they started ignoring me n stuff again so I asked what happened (I asked the same person again). she told me n I just last seen her message. the things that she said (abt what I said abt her) were the things that I rlly didn't tell anyone but I only wrote in my diary. so I suspected that someone took my diary without my permission. at first I thought it was someone else (a guy but im not gonna say it here cuz its too long winded) but it turned out that it wasn't. I did not suspect them (my clique) but eventually someone (2 ppl) came to tell me that two ppl from my clique was spreading a picture of my diary to everyone (that's how they got to know what happened). that was only when I got to know that it was actually my "friends" who were doing that. btw, the two diary entries I wrote I complained abt 2 ppl, one of the girl from my clique n the guy that I suspected who took my diary at first). in the end the discipline master got to know abt it so we sat down to talk in the presence of the discipline master. the truth: [ one day (idk when) one of the girl from my clique went to take my diary because they were "curious" n suspected that I wrote something bad abt them. they saw the 2 entries n took a picture of it. n yah things go on... (too long to type out) n they were angry with me abt it like wth did they even take my diary n took a pic and show to everyone? n one of the girl send to it to the guy mentioned above as they were tuition friends n caused lots of trouble for me. n in the meantime when all these were happening, they were openly talking abt me on social media like askfm n instagram but they did not mention my name but it's obviously me. n during that period of time I got so depressed that I totally couldn't concentrate on anything I did, I couldn't sleep well, my appetite became worse, I was afraid to go to sch, I even thought of committing suicide which I eventually didn't as I did not have the courage to. but eventually things kind of got settled so yeah.
next incident:
two of the girls received hates on askfm which were asked anonymously n they suspected it was me n messaged me to ask abt it. I swear it wasn't me so I said no. one of them eventually replied "sorry to have misunderstood u (?)" then the other one asked me to screenshot my activity box on askfm n send it to her to make sure that it wasn't me. we started quarreling again n stuff n she still did not believe me after I had sent her the screenshot. she said that she would send me a qn on askfm I asked me to screenshot again to show her which I did in the end. she even called me shameless/dog n stuff. then she said that the one I sent was edited (which is true) but I denied as i edited because the ones that i left out were personal but I swear I wasn't the one who send them hates. so yah idk how im supposed to face them in sch n stuff n im back to becoming depressed again.