Hey, my name is Kyle. I really need help. I'm suicidal. I've somewhat recently lost my mom. (About 2 years ago) I've moved to a completely different state with zero friends. My dad got married to someone I don't like. My step brother drives me insane. My grades are going to shit. I get bullied. I have depression and anxiety which, obviously, only makes this whole situation a lot harder. I've been having suicidal thoughts for a few months now. In fact, I'm so used to them that I'm starting to write a book about why I'm doing it. I don't want to do this. My dad lost 2 of his kids, the other on lives in NY all the way across the country. I don't want him to lose me. I'm his last kid he has around. I just want help. I'm tired of this. I'm numb but I still feel every bit of emotional pain that gets tossed at me. I don't know where I'm going with my life. I have no motivation to do anything anymore. I just want to be freed from this shit I deal with. I don't mean to sound like some stereotypical emo kid, and if I do I'm sorry. (Sorry if that offends you) I just need a bit of help, and I don't know where else to go so I came here. I've never tried one of these forums before, but it's my last chance. I have a therapist, and he can only help so much. Please help me. That's all I ask.