hi again lol so... ugh
I'm bi, I have known i was bi for like 2 years, i'm 16 nearly.
so quite literally an hour ago I had a lot of firsts with this guy from my swim
team. He told me he was bi and we were in the park talking about random
stuff and I was talking about how baby oil makes your body shiny and
glistening and it also makes a great massage oil lolololol yup. we went to my house in
my bedroom and I stripped (omg don't judge me) and let him rub me down with this oil stuff,
it felt great and then he started to like i dunno. Then he was rubbing my "member" and i
just kissed him on the cheek and then we tongued for less than 10
seconds. Once i took my mouth away from him, I WAS DONE. I left the
bedroom and went right in the shower to rinse off the oil and just clean
myself to oblivion. Then I brushed my teeth and filled my mouth with
mouthwash to my mouth's capacity. I felt dirty, filthy, disgusting, and
horrible on the inside. He was the first to see me naked, rub me and
massage me, finger, handjob, and tongue kiss me. I had a horrible sense
of judgement, I regret it to the fullest even though i didn't lose my
virginity, I have been regretting it every second. Since i've been back
home, i've cried my eyes out, screamed in a pillow, submerged my head
underwater in my backyard pool, and just sat and put my head down in
total emotional agony. I feel like sh*t.
I tried to reach my friend who ii gay and has dealt with losing his
actual virginity, but he is unavailable. I heard about this site
because I've been looking for forums for bi teenagers like myself, so I
finally joined after this moment today and this is like my fsec post.
Can someone who knows what i'm feeling reply on this thread and help me feel better, give me insight, tips, idk ANYTHING please.
Because so far, the past hour, i've been doing this and if I wasn't crying then I really wanted to.
also if you're against bisexuality just move along
FUCK THAT WAS HARD TO WRITE
sorry for swearing too
I'm bi, I have known i was bi for like 2 years, i'm 16 nearly.
so quite literally an hour ago I had a lot of firsts with this guy from my swim
team. He told me he was bi and we were in the park talking about random
stuff and I was talking about how baby oil makes your body shiny and
glistening and it also makes a great massage oil lolololol yup. we went to my house in
my bedroom and I stripped (omg don't judge me) and let him rub me down with this oil stuff,
it felt great and then he started to like i dunno. Then he was rubbing my "member" and i
just kissed him on the cheek and then we tongued for less than 10
seconds. Once i took my mouth away from him, I WAS DONE. I left the
bedroom and went right in the shower to rinse off the oil and just clean
myself to oblivion. Then I brushed my teeth and filled my mouth with
mouthwash to my mouth's capacity. I felt dirty, filthy, disgusting, and
horrible on the inside. He was the first to see me naked, rub me and
massage me, finger, handjob, and tongue kiss me. I had a horrible sense
of judgement, I regret it to the fullest even though i didn't lose my
virginity, I have been regretting it every second. Since i've been back
home, i've cried my eyes out, screamed in a pillow, submerged my head
underwater in my backyard pool, and just sat and put my head down in
total emotional agony. I feel like sh*t.
I tried to reach my friend who ii gay and has dealt with losing his
actual virginity, but he is unavailable. I heard about this site
because I've been looking for forums for bi teenagers like myself, so I
finally joined after this moment today and this is like my fsec post.
Can someone who knows what i'm feeling reply on this thread and help me feel better, give me insight, tips, idk ANYTHING please.
Because so far, the past hour, i've been doing this and if I wasn't crying then I really wanted to.
also if you're against bisexuality just move along
FUCK THAT WAS HARD TO WRITE
sorry for swearing too