[INDENT]Ok, so it's like this:
`the PAST
In 7th grade I was introduced to public school
once again. I was registered as soon as Second Semester was in
session. Well, I had to ride the bus && I was doing quite fine. I was
too loud && definately immature, but that was due to being around
people my age FINALLY. Anywhoo, i had slight trouble but everyone
has trouble w/ SOMEBODY. So that wasn't out of the norm, i Just
didn't like this girl in my P.E. class. I felt she ran her mouth too
much.
So after about 2 months in public school my cousin came to stay
with us. She was pretty cool, at least that's what i THOUGHT. &&
we got along fine. She ended up having to go to my school which
at that time I loved. She was in the 8th grade though. Well, she
made friends with just about everyone && I became the last thing
on anybody's mind. We started having problems w/ her && her mom
at our house && it started going to school w/ us.
TO make a long story short, she got mad at me && told a bunch
of 8th graders that I was talking mess about them && they all
wanted to jump me. I didn't get on the bus because I didn't want
to be jumped && because I didn't really do anything. I mean YES I
did say a couple of things BUT WHO HADN'T !?! I mean I was just
as normal as any other girl or boy in school ! What I DID SAY was
never known, just the crap that I didn't say. Anywhoo, I ended the
school year with like 20 enemies && they all went to highschool...
except about 7 of them. We all went to 8th grade together.
` the PRESENT
Now, I'm in highschool && this whole year is a drag seeing that I
have to be in school w/ them all AGAIN. PLUS I have even more
people who hate me just BECAUSE of their friends. The first couple
weeks of school were ok but torchering. I had to avoid just about
half of the population in school just because I would see them
with a lot of people who REALLY have it out for me. HAVE meaning
they hate me soooo much right now && for what doesn't make sense.
Because in 7th grade there was ONE person I was accused of talking
crap about. && I don't even go to school w/ her. Just her friends...smh.
It bothers me because why do you hate me sooo much as if I talked
crap about you && I never did ?
The first week, I walked past a boy && his friends. The boy I had
used to be really cool w/ && we talked && laughed a lot in school
do you know what he said when he seen me !? " Ugly ass bitch ! ",
first off, it is a PROVEN fact I AM NOT UGLY. ( Not to be cocky), but
it was still humiliating as laughs pretty much erupted through the
hallways.
Then I just learned to move past them && stay away. But EVERY
NOW && THEN i have to walk next to them or past them. MAtter
of fact that SAME BOY has just came back from BIC ( behavioral
intervention center ) just about everyone goes there though &&
he was walking w/ some chick && he was like " There goes that
ugly ass Dyke " && then he walked past && looked at me && said
" Naw, that's a nigga "...smh. That pissed me off && really made me
upset. Like what the HELL did I ever do to make that bitch of a
cousin do something like that to me !? She pretty much has ruined my life. I don't go to lunch because everybody is in there && wherever
I go I hear whispers && what not. && not all of it is just bcause of
7th grade. It's just because of everything. New enimies talkin' mess.
I..just don't understand. Sometimes I just wish I was never born...
maybe life would be better. I bet the world wouldn't stop or skip a
beat if I suddenly died. Not even the people that surround me daily.
Except my mom && dad && brothers && sisters. ( Sorry for the
incorrect spellings && grammer. I have nothing left inside of me
right now that makes me care enough to change any mistakes)
I just wish I could get away. No matter what there's always
something. But anything is better than having EVERYONE hate
you for no apparent reason. Even though they have a reason..
but it's not even valid. Smh.
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`the PAST
In 7th grade I was introduced to public school
once again. I was registered as soon as Second Semester was in
session. Well, I had to ride the bus && I was doing quite fine. I was
too loud && definately immature, but that was due to being around
people my age FINALLY. Anywhoo, i had slight trouble but everyone
has trouble w/ SOMEBODY. So that wasn't out of the norm, i Just
didn't like this girl in my P.E. class. I felt she ran her mouth too
much.
So after about 2 months in public school my cousin came to stay
with us. She was pretty cool, at least that's what i THOUGHT. &&
we got along fine. She ended up having to go to my school which
at that time I loved. She was in the 8th grade though. Well, she
made friends with just about everyone && I became the last thing
on anybody's mind. We started having problems w/ her && her mom
at our house && it started going to school w/ us.
TO make a long story short, she got mad at me && told a bunch
of 8th graders that I was talking mess about them && they all
wanted to jump me. I didn't get on the bus because I didn't want
to be jumped && because I didn't really do anything. I mean YES I
did say a couple of things BUT WHO HADN'T !?! I mean I was just
as normal as any other girl or boy in school ! What I DID SAY was
never known, just the crap that I didn't say. Anywhoo, I ended the
school year with like 20 enemies && they all went to highschool...
except about 7 of them. We all went to 8th grade together.
` the PRESENT
Now, I'm in highschool && this whole year is a drag seeing that I
have to be in school w/ them all AGAIN. PLUS I have even more
people who hate me just BECAUSE of their friends. The first couple
weeks of school were ok but torchering. I had to avoid just about
half of the population in school just because I would see them
with a lot of people who REALLY have it out for me. HAVE meaning
they hate me soooo much right now && for what doesn't make sense.
Because in 7th grade there was ONE person I was accused of talking
crap about. && I don't even go to school w/ her. Just her friends...smh.
It bothers me because why do you hate me sooo much as if I talked
crap about you && I never did ?
The first week, I walked past a boy && his friends. The boy I had
used to be really cool w/ && we talked && laughed a lot in school
do you know what he said when he seen me !? " Ugly ass bitch ! ",
first off, it is a PROVEN fact I AM NOT UGLY. ( Not to be cocky), but
it was still humiliating as laughs pretty much erupted through the
hallways.
Then I just learned to move past them && stay away. But EVERY
NOW && THEN i have to walk next to them or past them. MAtter
of fact that SAME BOY has just came back from BIC ( behavioral
intervention center ) just about everyone goes there though &&
he was walking w/ some chick && he was like " There goes that
ugly ass Dyke " && then he walked past && looked at me && said
" Naw, that's a nigga "...smh. That pissed me off && really made me
upset. Like what the HELL did I ever do to make that bitch of a
cousin do something like that to me !? She pretty much has ruined my life. I don't go to lunch because everybody is in there && wherever
I go I hear whispers && what not. && not all of it is just bcause of
7th grade. It's just because of everything. New enimies talkin' mess.
I..just don't understand. Sometimes I just wish I was never born...
maybe life would be better. I bet the world wouldn't stop or skip a
beat if I suddenly died. Not even the people that surround me daily.
Except my mom && dad && brothers && sisters. ( Sorry for the
incorrect spellings && grammer. I have nothing left inside of me
right now that makes me care enough to change any mistakes)
I just wish I could get away. No matter what there's alwayssomething. But anything is better than having EVERYONE hate
you for no apparent reason. Even though they have a reason..
but it's not even valid. Smh.
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