Hi, I'm a 16 year old male, I live in England and am confused about my sexuality. I'm a fairly devout Christian, although I'm far from evangelical. I'd say that I'm at least decently good-looking.

Basically, I really want to be straight, get married, have children and live a happy and normal live with a wife and family.

I think that when first began to masturbate, i did so whilst watching straight porn, however somehow i got on to gay porn. All my family and friends think that I'm straight, (i know my friends don't think i'm gay because they're not afraid to call me gay as a joke). About 2 years ago, i forgot to clear out my search history and my mother noticed some gay porn things in there and when she spoke to me about it, she told me that she doesn't think I'm gay, and that my dad doesn't think I am either. I've always had fairly typical boy interests (planes, action games and films).

So, when i masturbate, i almost always think about gay acts usually involving other boys at my school. However, i also sometimes masturbate Whilst thinking about girls, but i don't do this too often, usually because i find it far easier and faster to ejaculate whilst thinking of gay things.

In my school, girls enter my year during the next year and there's two girls in particular in the years above me who are super hot, and sometimes i masturbate whilst thinking about them. I really want to get a girlfriend, but I'm still worried that I'm gay.

Overall, I'm wondering what you think about all this, and whether you would think i'm gay or not from this (ok, fine i posted this mostly because i want someone to tell me that i'm not gay, and why). Sorry about any bad spelling, grammar, punctuation or upper case letters mistakes, but it's quite late here and I'm using my phone.

Thanks for any help,

When I see a male who's very good looking, i'll probably think 'wow he's good looking' (i don't look at or think about their ass etc when i see them) but i'll think the same thing about any girl that i see who's hot. Also, i rarely think about sexual acts with males except for when i masturbate. Also i do feel attracted to girls' tits etc, for example one day recently i walked into a building and one of the super sexy girls i mentioned was bending over facing away from me, and yeah...

I'm not really sure what you mean by that, but I can't really imagine myself being gay. Also, I've never considered living a gay lifestyle, or being involved in anything like gay marriage, so I guess I see what you're saying, and agree with it.