Hey there. So this is my situation... Im a girl going out with an older guy and we've been going out for like, 3 years now.
When we first started going out I had only known him for a few months prior, and several months after we started going out, things got pretty serious. About a year later we took some time apart because we weren't getting along very well and in that time i cheated on him 3 times, with two different guys. None of it was supposed to happen, and I never wanted any of it to happen, but one thing led to another and before I realised what I was doing it was too late.
About a month later I couldnt bear to be apart from him any longer and we got back together. A month after that I confessed what I had done. Things were rocky for a while but they've sorted themselves out since then. It's been smooth sailing for a while but a couple of nights ago I made a big mistake.
I was over at one of my close friends houses (male friend, btw) and we were watchin movies. It was getting pretty late and he put his hand next to my leg, then onto my leg... and I liked it... and I let him! Things progressed and by an hour later he was feeling up and down my legs, and around my ribs. And I didnt stop him!
And the worst part is, this has happened 2 times before with the same guy! And every time it happens, I feel like crap aferwards for letting it happen, and he probably feels worse. And now I think he's ignoring me...and it's driving me insane. I cant get him off my mind! And dont get me wrong, I love my boyfriend, but when I'm with this guy, it puts so much doubt in my mind about whether I really do...and I hate that feeling. And now, I really don't know what to do! I seem to have no boundaries at all...and it's constantly getting me into trouble...I just feel so lost...
So anything will help. And thanks heaps for reading all of this!
When we first started going out I had only known him for a few months prior, and several months after we started going out, things got pretty serious. About a year later we took some time apart because we weren't getting along very well and in that time i cheated on him 3 times, with two different guys. None of it was supposed to happen, and I never wanted any of it to happen, but one thing led to another and before I realised what I was doing it was too late.
About a month later I couldnt bear to be apart from him any longer and we got back together. A month after that I confessed what I had done. Things were rocky for a while but they've sorted themselves out since then. It's been smooth sailing for a while but a couple of nights ago I made a big mistake.
I was over at one of my close friends houses (male friend, btw) and we were watchin movies. It was getting pretty late and he put his hand next to my leg, then onto my leg... and I liked it... and I let him! Things progressed and by an hour later he was feeling up and down my legs, and around my ribs. And I didnt stop him!
And the worst part is, this has happened 2 times before with the same guy! And every time it happens, I feel like crap aferwards for letting it happen, and he probably feels worse. And now I think he's ignoring me...and it's driving me insane. I cant get him off my mind! And dont get me wrong, I love my boyfriend, but when I'm with this guy, it puts so much doubt in my mind about whether I really do...and I hate that feeling. And now, I really don't know what to do! I seem to have no boundaries at all...and it's constantly getting me into trouble...I just feel so lost...
So anything will help. And thanks heaps for reading all of this!
