I really dont get what is going on with me at the moment, every time i see a pregnant woman on the street i get all jealous, my hand falls to my uterus and i feel empty. I am only 18 still at college and I plan on going to London for the next 2 years to do an amazing course, which will lead to a career that i will not be able to have with a child, i will barely be able to support myself never mind a baby but somehow i feel desperate.
I thought it was under control and i could handle it, but then this weekend every time i slept with my boyfriend I was praying that by some strange coincidence both the condom and the pill would fail and he would impregnate me.
My logic and common sense tells me i do NOT want a baby, but every other part of me feels like i need one.
I do not understand it, on saturday my bf and i watched "knocked up" before we went to bed, i went all gushy and was like, "ahh films like this make me wanna have a baby", his response was "errr Han no thank you not for at least another 5 or 6 years thank you very much." (he is also 4 years older than me) It was a totally rational response but as soon as we were in bed and the lights were out i started crying.
Is it just me going crazy or do other girls feel like this also? If so how do you make it stop??
I thought it was under control and i could handle it, but then this weekend every time i slept with my boyfriend I was praying that by some strange coincidence both the condom and the pill would fail and he would impregnate me.
My logic and common sense tells me i do NOT want a baby, but every other part of me feels like i need one.
I do not understand it, on saturday my bf and i watched "knocked up" before we went to bed, i went all gushy and was like, "ahh films like this make me wanna have a baby", his response was "errr Han no thank you not for at least another 5 or 6 years thank you very much." (he is also 4 years older than me) It was a totally rational response but as soon as we were in bed and the lights were out i started crying.
Is it just me going crazy or do other girls feel like this also? If so how do you make it stop??