What experience have you had with anorexia? Do you know anyone who's ever had it? What did you notice about them, and such, as their conditioned worsened? I'm just looking into, hoping to get first hand knowledge from someone so I can compare it to what I'm feeling.

I don't think it's even close to anorexia, but sometimes I find myself evaluating my feelings, and it seems a bit over the edge the way I act sometime. I'm 5'7.5" and I weigh around 105-108. I practically cry when I see a number over 108 on the scale, I don't know why, it's just how I react. I do weigh myself everyday. At points in the day, I look back on things I've done and contemplate on it being unhealthy. At my worst moments, I'm practically screaming inside, frustrated at not being around 100 pounds or less, and about recently becoming a 0, rather than a 00. I know it sounds bad, but as a kid I was always the skinny one, and to me there's just something frustrating about not getting those comments about being skinny anymore. I do, just not as often. It almost sounds a bit conceited, or self-centered. I have a food log, and at certain days my calorie goals around 500, but it's not very often, and it's usually after I have a bad day. I'm almost always playing with the fat on my legs, thinking about how it shouldn't be there.

I started getting these concerns when my friendship started drifting with a really close friend of mine. We still hang out a lot since we're part of the same circle of friends still, but whenever she talks to me she tells me that I'm fat. Or to go die. I know she's kidding, but she says that all the time, and on my weakest days that can actually affect me. I don't think this is the only reason I feel like I should be skinnier, but I can pretty much say it affects me.

Thanks to anyone who read this, I just want your thoughts. I know it's not as serious as anorexia, but do you think it could be really going in that direction? This is generally my train of thought when I'm thinking clearly. I usually tell myself that I should just stop with this whole food evaluation thing when I'm in this state, but it doesn't matter because eventually I'll end up feeling the same way again, not that I'm fat, just that I should be skinnier. So enough ranting, thanks again, I'd just like to hear thoughts from people who've had experience themselves or other people; actually, just anyone for that matter. Just thoughts. Thanks.