Physically? I'd be thinner overall, but with muscle tone as well. That's why I'm going to the gym. :] Mentally? I'd love to have more self-esteem. That sounds conceited, but mine is cripplingly low.
Honestly, I wouldn't think of you any differently. I might be depressed myself, and one of my closest friends suffers from depression. I don't think the topic of depression is anything to shy away from, or be weirded out by.
I know how you feel, but honestly, you can change those problems! Go to a doctor, for one. Get tested, and find out for sure if the rash is a result of HIV, or something else. It could be either. I know it'll be hard, but you can get into a good college. You said it would take forever to upgrade your courses - the sooner you start, the sooner they'll get upgraded. Your life isn't over, even though it might feel like it's not worth living. Things will get so much better. PM me anyime if you need …
I've wondered from time to time, because I've struggled with thoughts of suicide and fit other symptoms, and there's a history of clinical depression and mood disorders in my family. I'm going to get evaluated for it by a doctor soon anyway, so I guess I'll know then.
It sounds like he really hurt you a lot. It might take some time to forgive him, but if you think he's changed, it sounds like it's worth it. You guys could become great friends; who knows?
In my experience, people care less when you're in high school compared to middle school. But you don't have to make a huge deal out of it if you don't want to. Good luck! :]
I've got a 3.67, hoping to get a 4.0 this last semester. We have to take two years of a foreign language as well, but I'm taking Spanish. Sounds easier than Japanese, which is the only other language offered.