my father & i have no relationship at all, & its nothing close to what a father-daughter relationship should be. this really depresses me to the point where i cry just about everyday, & im rarely happy. i have two brothers & two sisters (im the oldest) & he spends so much time with them & they are extremely close, but whenever we are together, it always feels like we are strangers. he doesnt act like a father towards me at all & it really upsets me. im going away for college soon on wednesday & thought that this would convince him that maybe he should spend more time with me now that im leaving, but he puts forth zero effort. i almost feel like im not important to him & i dont matter at all.
i feel that the only way for me to release this depression & the trouble that it gives me, is to talk to him about it. but the problem is that i've never discussed to him about my feelings toward our relationship before b/c it is just too difficult. & by us not having a conversation concerning our relationship, idk how to approach him about it. im afraid that if i do confront him about it, i will just explode b/c i've held this in for years now. i know this is a lot but i really really need someone's advice at the moment, it would mean the world to me.:( ----> thank you <----
i feel that the only way for me to release this depression & the trouble that it gives me, is to talk to him about it. but the problem is that i've never discussed to him about my feelings toward our relationship before b/c it is just too difficult. & by us not having a conversation concerning our relationship, idk how to approach him about it. im afraid that if i do confront him about it, i will just explode b/c i've held this in for years now. i know this is a lot but i really really need someone's advice at the moment, it would mean the world to me.:( ----> thank you <----