what's happenin', forum? (=3 reference, yo.)

so i've been with my boyfriend for almost three months. i'm almost 16 and he just turned 18. he, however, is much more sexually experienced than i am, though he's been celibate for a few years out of boredom/laziness (i can account for the fact that he's had plenty of hot girlfriends in that time, it's just him.)

we make out and fool around when i'm at his house. he's very much focused on my pleasure over his, but i can't orgasm. we've done plenty of foreplay, with lots of dry humping and fingering, but i find myself faking every time. it feels good, so i make sounds, but i never actually come.

it's not that he's not good in bed - i know several girls that have done "stuff" with him in the past, and he's definitely very experienced, so i'm thinking it's me. however, i don't really want to go all the way yet. he's always trying to get my pants off and such, but i stop him. i figured that if i seem to enjoy fooling around so much, he wouldn't actually feel the need to fuck me, as he's really not that interested in it for himself. instead, he thinks i want it so bad and is always trying to convince me to go all the way for my own pleasure. he thinks the only reason i'm refusing is to hold onto my virginity because of my parents, but really i just don't want to lose it this young, and this early in the relationship. also, i'm intimidated by his experience; i haven't really done anything sexually before this, so i'm afraid of not measuring up to his past girlfriends/quick fucks. he knows i'm not experienced, and is happy to "play with me", because, as he says, getting people off is his thing. i feel guilty that it's so one-sided, when i'm not even actually reaching orgasm.

i'd like to at least bring him some enjoyment, but again, blowjobs or handjobs would be a first for me, and he's very experienced. i'm just not sure exactly what to do, and i want it to be good for him.

i suppose this isn't a very particular question, more of a vent, but general opinions on the situation would be great. thanks.

Linda - i dunno, honestly. i'm not experienced, like i said, and i don't masterbate... just not interested. i really don't care that much about orgasm, i enjoy it and i don't mind faking, he finds so much pleasure in my pleasure. but i'm wondering if there's any physical reason i can't.

when it comes to the pressure thing, i've kind of dug my own grave. he's generally 'too lazy for sex,' as he says, and hasn't actually had sex since he was 13 or 14, though he's done everything else. the thing is, he thinks i want it so badly, since i seem to like everything else so much, and he just thinks i'm being silly and not fucking him because of my parents and such.

he's my first real boyfriend, i turned down everyone else thus far, even the ones i liked. dunno, just not that interested in dating. he, on the other hand, has had maybe 20 girlfriends and a boyfriend or two. he knows i'm pretty inexperienced, and we're very comfortable with eachother, just being silly and stuff even when in bed.

i just don't know that i want to lose my virginity at age 15. i keep making excuses to myself, but really, i feel like a slut doing it this early in the relationship, with my first boyfriend, and especially since most of my close friends are virgins. i don't want him to lose respect for me, and i'm worried that he's getting irritated with my excuses, though he always says "i love you and every part of you, even the stubborn little virgin part." i don't know, i'm just kind of confused as to what to do in general, as it's really my fault i'm in the situation in the first place.

Shadowsnip - to be honest, i'm not into the whole stereotypical teen love thing. i'm not going to be naive and say im in love him after 3 months of dating. i love him, but i'm not IN love with him. does that make sense at all?

shameless bump... please help?