First let me say that for the majority of the posters here, we came here because of a bad real life situation or problems in our past. My story is very long and complex, but I'm just going to write a quick summary on one part of my story because it relates to the topic I need advice in.
Back in high school, I had a lot more acquaintances than actual friends. You know, the type of person you know at a party from somewhere else and say what's up, then move on to the next person. From those acquaintances I had a group of closer acquaintances, around 10-20 kids, and from those 10-20 kids comes from 3-4 of my close friends. The problem is, our relationships revolved around drugs and alcohol. Whatever we did, it had to involve those. At the end of the day and from therapy, I realized I only had 4-5 close friends out of those 20 kids.
That didn't bother me, though. I'm entering college, starting off fresh. I get to meet a lot of new people and get to make new friends. At my college orientation, I met a group of kids. It was fun, I thought I was making some nice new friends. Now at college, these kids ignore me. They don't hit me up, and when I hit them up, they either:
1.) Don't text me back
2.) Aren't very into the conversations
So, now I'm saying to myself, what the hell did I do wrong? Why did they stop hitting me up? Now, as a couple of you know, I am very non-judgmental. I will become friends with anyone. However, it gets to the point where I need to select my core group of friends, and not just acquaintances. The problem I'm already seeing is that a lot of people have made those close friends, and I haven't. It's not that I'm here without anyone to talk to, I have some kids I chill with, but.. it just reminds me of the acquaintances before I came to college.
The other thing is, I try to meet new people in my hall. They seem to ignore me. I'd be like, hey what's up, what's goin on. I usually like to start conversations. Then they look at me like I'm from a different planet. Am I ugly or something? I just don't understand at all what the hell the problem is. It's very high school like at my school at the moment, and I can't stand it.
I'm going to join some clubs such as a frat, a political action club, soccer, and some community service clubs.. but.. how far is that going to go?
Basically, I'm really worried about making those close, group of friends. I lost the ones back at home which I miss a lot. I can be myself around them. I can't be myself here. I haven't met friends where I can be myself, and that really worries me. I'm not shy, either. However, I'm not overly social. I like to start up conversations, I like to hang out, I like to do shit, but when it comes to other people, they won't want to do it with me. I feel like shit to be honest.
Back in high school, I had a lot more acquaintances than actual friends. You know, the type of person you know at a party from somewhere else and say what's up, then move on to the next person. From those acquaintances I had a group of closer acquaintances, around 10-20 kids, and from those 10-20 kids comes from 3-4 of my close friends. The problem is, our relationships revolved around drugs and alcohol. Whatever we did, it had to involve those. At the end of the day and from therapy, I realized I only had 4-5 close friends out of those 20 kids.
That didn't bother me, though. I'm entering college, starting off fresh. I get to meet a lot of new people and get to make new friends. At my college orientation, I met a group of kids. It was fun, I thought I was making some nice new friends. Now at college, these kids ignore me. They don't hit me up, and when I hit them up, they either:
1.) Don't text me back
2.) Aren't very into the conversations
So, now I'm saying to myself, what the hell did I do wrong? Why did they stop hitting me up? Now, as a couple of you know, I am very non-judgmental. I will become friends with anyone. However, it gets to the point where I need to select my core group of friends, and not just acquaintances. The problem I'm already seeing is that a lot of people have made those close friends, and I haven't. It's not that I'm here without anyone to talk to, I have some kids I chill with, but.. it just reminds me of the acquaintances before I came to college.
The other thing is, I try to meet new people in my hall. They seem to ignore me. I'd be like, hey what's up, what's goin on. I usually like to start conversations. Then they look at me like I'm from a different planet. Am I ugly or something? I just don't understand at all what the hell the problem is. It's very high school like at my school at the moment, and I can't stand it.
I'm going to join some clubs such as a frat, a political action club, soccer, and some community service clubs.. but.. how far is that going to go?
Basically, I'm really worried about making those close, group of friends. I lost the ones back at home which I miss a lot. I can be myself around them. I can't be myself here. I haven't met friends where I can be myself, and that really worries me. I'm not shy, either. However, I'm not overly social. I like to start up conversations, I like to hang out, I like to do shit, but when it comes to other people, they won't want to do it with me. I feel like shit to be honest.
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