Alright, so this is gonna be a pretty decently long story. Read on if you're interested in reading about crappy teenage drama life. Whoopee.
So anyways, a few details about myself. I'm a seventeen year old virgin, I just started grade 12, and I've had a few girlfriends but very little "experience." Yeah, that's about all you need to know.
This story's about two girls in my life. One we'll call V, and the other we'll call K. Both are very close friends of mine and have been for quite some time.
V is one of my ex-girlfriends from a year and a half ago. We dated briefly at the start of 2009 when we first met, but that didn't work out, we didn't talk for a while, but a couple months later we started talking once more and ended up becoming very good friends in the process and we've been close ever since.
K is a girl I've known for quite some time now. We were in the same gym class a couple years ago and that's where we started our friendship. For about a year after that, we were never really super close and didn't really know each other too well, we'd say hi in the halls every once in a while and talk on Facebook once in a blue moon but that's about where it stopped.
We started becoming very close at the start of second semester last year. We ended up in the same English class and along with talking to one another in that class, we'd talk more on Facebook and MSN, getting so close to the point where we were talking for at least a couple hours every single day always having really good conversations. It was about this time that I realized I was starting to fall for her. Initially, I never really thought much of it because I always thought she was out of my league. She's beautiful, kind, and well-liked around the school (I wouldn't necessarily say popular, but she hung out with those kinds of people a fair bit), so I tried to shrug it off and not think anything of it, but that became harder and harder because we started talking more and more, always texting one another, walking around the school together, and still always talking on Facebook and MSN, and I realized "shit, I must really like this girl.."
I always wanted to tell her how I felt. It's never really been something I was good at, so that definitely held me back, but two things that stopped me every single time - she started telling me about this guy she was dating from the next city over, and the fact that she was moving over the summer to a different province. But still, with all this, I found myself growing much closer and much more attracted to her, but I never fucking said anything. She started officially going out with that other guy, and moved in July, and to this day, I'm still absolutely crazy about her.
Now, you're probably wondering what V's relevance is in all of this - that is, if you even remember her after all the rambling I just did about K. Anyways, ever since our breakup, V and I have always still had some sort of feelings for one another. We've almost gotten back together since then about three or four times, and just recently, it's happened again. She texted me the other day telling me that she was still "in love" with me (which kind of came as a shock to me, since she never even told me she was in love with me in the first place), and we've spent the past couple of days hanging out and acting like a couple, and we even made out yesterday.
Normally, I'd be completely stoked for this, because until about seven months ago, V was the only girl I really had feelings for, and since I'm a seventeen year old who's never had sex before, part of me is thinking this is a really opportunity to change that and finally lose my virginity. But the feelings for K are still there, lingering inside of me and running wild all around. I still talk to K everyday over Facebook. Despite the fact that she's a few provinces away now, we've still managed to become even closer and I'm even taking her to prom if and when she comes back next May. But at the same time, V is absolutely crazy about me and I still have some feelings left for her as well, but not nearly as strong as the feelings I have for K, even though I know that I can't be with K because of her move as well as her recent breakup with her boyfriend which she's still struggling with.
So that's my problem. I really don't know what to do. Do I think with my cock and take this easy opportunity to lose my v-card, or do I think with my heart, continue being single and keep moping around because I just can't seem to get over this absolutely incredible girl?
So anyways, a few details about myself. I'm a seventeen year old virgin, I just started grade 12, and I've had a few girlfriends but very little "experience." Yeah, that's about all you need to know.
This story's about two girls in my life. One we'll call V, and the other we'll call K. Both are very close friends of mine and have been for quite some time.
V is one of my ex-girlfriends from a year and a half ago. We dated briefly at the start of 2009 when we first met, but that didn't work out, we didn't talk for a while, but a couple months later we started talking once more and ended up becoming very good friends in the process and we've been close ever since.
K is a girl I've known for quite some time now. We were in the same gym class a couple years ago and that's where we started our friendship. For about a year after that, we were never really super close and didn't really know each other too well, we'd say hi in the halls every once in a while and talk on Facebook once in a blue moon but that's about where it stopped.
We started becoming very close at the start of second semester last year. We ended up in the same English class and along with talking to one another in that class, we'd talk more on Facebook and MSN, getting so close to the point where we were talking for at least a couple hours every single day always having really good conversations. It was about this time that I realized I was starting to fall for her. Initially, I never really thought much of it because I always thought she was out of my league. She's beautiful, kind, and well-liked around the school (I wouldn't necessarily say popular, but she hung out with those kinds of people a fair bit), so I tried to shrug it off and not think anything of it, but that became harder and harder because we started talking more and more, always texting one another, walking around the school together, and still always talking on Facebook and MSN, and I realized "shit, I must really like this girl.."
I always wanted to tell her how I felt. It's never really been something I was good at, so that definitely held me back, but two things that stopped me every single time - she started telling me about this guy she was dating from the next city over, and the fact that she was moving over the summer to a different province. But still, with all this, I found myself growing much closer and much more attracted to her, but I never fucking said anything. She started officially going out with that other guy, and moved in July, and to this day, I'm still absolutely crazy about her.
Now, you're probably wondering what V's relevance is in all of this - that is, if you even remember her after all the rambling I just did about K. Anyways, ever since our breakup, V and I have always still had some sort of feelings for one another. We've almost gotten back together since then about three or four times, and just recently, it's happened again. She texted me the other day telling me that she was still "in love" with me (which kind of came as a shock to me, since she never even told me she was in love with me in the first place), and we've spent the past couple of days hanging out and acting like a couple, and we even made out yesterday.
Normally, I'd be completely stoked for this, because until about seven months ago, V was the only girl I really had feelings for, and since I'm a seventeen year old who's never had sex before, part of me is thinking this is a really opportunity to change that and finally lose my virginity. But the feelings for K are still there, lingering inside of me and running wild all around. I still talk to K everyday over Facebook. Despite the fact that she's a few provinces away now, we've still managed to become even closer and I'm even taking her to prom if and when she comes back next May. But at the same time, V is absolutely crazy about me and I still have some feelings left for her as well, but not nearly as strong as the feelings I have for K, even though I know that I can't be with K because of her move as well as her recent breakup with her boyfriend which she's still struggling with.
So that's my problem. I really don't know what to do. Do I think with my cock and take this easy opportunity to lose my v-card, or do I think with my heart, continue being single and keep moping around because I just can't seem to get over this absolutely incredible girl?