hey guys, this message might be really long because ive got so much to get off my chest its unreal. The weirdest thing is the only place i can do this is in a virtual world.
i am a 17 year old girl but these problems have been going on for atleast two years. I have no friends and i am a recluse. I do not know where to start i have serious self hatred issues which lowers my self esteem and self worth. I am overweight, and all my weight is on my stomach making me look horribly fat and disgusting. All the people i talk to are not my friends but simply people who are just there they dont care about me and i cant vent these issues to anyone because they just dont understand. I even lied about being pregnant once and my plan worked because suddenly everyone wanted to be my friend, i was 16 years old and in my last year at school, i had to lie and say i had a misscarriage because i didnt get pregnant so it would look dodgy if i carried on then no baby came.
Ive never had a propper relationship and living in brixton with all these hood girl it makes me feel so alone, ive resorted too trying to get pregnant from this one guy whose simply using me sex and has been for the past three years. I am in love with him but he doesnt feel the same he just calls me when he wants to f*ck and i go along with it because i love him and its the only attention i get from him. All boys want me for is sex, no one wants a relationship because im too ugly obviously, im ugly and fat, thats the reason. And no, its not just me talking i am clincally on the verge of obese.
i am at college and even there i talk to people but at lunch and break i go off by myself because i am not like the other girls, i have no confidence or friends.
when i get home i just sit on the computer and talk to my virtual friends who i have never actually met.
i have contemplated suicide so many times because it seems like the only option at times, but i always talk myself out of it. At the moment, the only thing keeping me going is this mission to get myself pregnant.
please reply and help me, this is my last option.
i am a 17 year old girl but these problems have been going on for atleast two years. I have no friends and i am a recluse. I do not know where to start i have serious self hatred issues which lowers my self esteem and self worth. I am overweight, and all my weight is on my stomach making me look horribly fat and disgusting. All the people i talk to are not my friends but simply people who are just there they dont care about me and i cant vent these issues to anyone because they just dont understand. I even lied about being pregnant once and my plan worked because suddenly everyone wanted to be my friend, i was 16 years old and in my last year at school, i had to lie and say i had a misscarriage because i didnt get pregnant so it would look dodgy if i carried on then no baby came.
Ive never had a propper relationship and living in brixton with all these hood girl it makes me feel so alone, ive resorted too trying to get pregnant from this one guy whose simply using me sex and has been for the past three years. I am in love with him but he doesnt feel the same he just calls me when he wants to f*ck and i go along with it because i love him and its the only attention i get from him. All boys want me for is sex, no one wants a relationship because im too ugly obviously, im ugly and fat, thats the reason. And no, its not just me talking i am clincally on the verge of obese.
i am at college and even there i talk to people but at lunch and break i go off by myself because i am not like the other girls, i have no confidence or friends.
when i get home i just sit on the computer and talk to my virtual friends who i have never actually met.
i have contemplated suicide so many times because it seems like the only option at times, but i always talk myself out of it. At the moment, the only thing keeping me going is this mission to get myself pregnant.
please reply and help me, this is my last option.