My friend says I’m thinking about this too much, but I just need others opinion on the matter I guess.
I use to be best of friends with this guy name David. We we’re really close and use to stay up every night texting to at least 1 o’ clock in the morning, sometimes even to 3.
David goes out with my other friend Melina (we actually became friends because he started dating her)
David and me use to bond on so many levels . . . at least I thought we did. He said I was one of the few people he could trust and told me his inner convictions he has with himself, and how he confessed he didn’t think he was good enough for Melina.
I soon realized that David had a lot of self- esteem issues and regularly blamed himself when things went wrong. I was always there for him when he needed someone to listen to, even at those crazy hours of the night when he’d call crying. He also let me know that he was there for me.
But when he broke up with Melina, he got really depressed and closed off from people. Even so we made it through that even when no one thought we would and he eventually got back with Melina which was great
But there was something different. His smiles seemed stiff and forced. There was this bitter undercut to his tone all the time now and his eyes were so cold. (forgive me if I sound clique like some book) after he got back with Melina, he didn’t expect any of his friends to return.
He had pushed them all away and could not understand why someone would want to be friends with him. He even told me that one day I would leave him too.
After graduation he stopped making an effort to show up when he was invited places. We soon stopped texting. (we picked back up on the texting but soon after his phone got cut off for not having the money to pay). I would call the house but he’d never be home. The occasional times he did tag along with Melina he’d made himself clear he was content with just Melina being there and would even wonder off alone.
When Melina would get upset with him being anti- social one of us would go and find him. The times I did find him he said he didn’t feel comfortable around all those people . . . like they weren’t his friends.
After all this time he was still pushing people away. (about 2 years now at this point)
We don’t communicate anymore. The only way I could manage to hangout with him and him act normal was when we we’re alone or if he was with Melina (making me a third wheel).
I hate to think that he was right when he said I’d eventually give up on him too and I’d leave, but I don’t know what to do. It’s not like he left me with a lot of opinions.
I use to be best of friends with this guy name David. We we’re really close and use to stay up every night texting to at least 1 o’ clock in the morning, sometimes even to 3.
David goes out with my other friend Melina (we actually became friends because he started dating her)
David and me use to bond on so many levels . . . at least I thought we did. He said I was one of the few people he could trust and told me his inner convictions he has with himself, and how he confessed he didn’t think he was good enough for Melina.
I soon realized that David had a lot of self- esteem issues and regularly blamed himself when things went wrong. I was always there for him when he needed someone to listen to, even at those crazy hours of the night when he’d call crying. He also let me know that he was there for me.
But when he broke up with Melina, he got really depressed and closed off from people. Even so we made it through that even when no one thought we would and he eventually got back with Melina which was great
But there was something different. His smiles seemed stiff and forced. There was this bitter undercut to his tone all the time now and his eyes were so cold. (forgive me if I sound clique like some book) after he got back with Melina, he didn’t expect any of his friends to return.
He had pushed them all away and could not understand why someone would want to be friends with him. He even told me that one day I would leave him too.
After graduation he stopped making an effort to show up when he was invited places. We soon stopped texting. (we picked back up on the texting but soon after his phone got cut off for not having the money to pay). I would call the house but he’d never be home. The occasional times he did tag along with Melina he’d made himself clear he was content with just Melina being there and would even wonder off alone.
When Melina would get upset with him being anti- social one of us would go and find him. The times I did find him he said he didn’t feel comfortable around all those people . . . like they weren’t his friends.
After all this time he was still pushing people away. (about 2 years now at this point)
We don’t communicate anymore. The only way I could manage to hangout with him and him act normal was when we we’re alone or if he was with Melina (making me a third wheel).
I hate to think that he was right when he said I’d eventually give up on him too and I’d leave, but I don’t know what to do. It’s not like he left me with a lot of opinions.
. . . tramlaw ni xes gnivah ekil stI :wink:
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